i am so feeling hopeless right now felt like i want to go home right now... i hate my self yup that's true i can't absorbe anything today just felt like i wanna take a long long walk non stop and don't go home... i wanna stay out without facing everyone at home... i wanna go out and never come in again... crap right.. yup i am crap my whole life is crap nothing usefull maybe i should never go out to the society.. mayb just walk away from everyone and don't meet anyone at all coz i feel that whenever i meet someone they will critise me and just makes me feel bad... well not cool to run away from people well if only i can.... god maybe i am not spending to much time with god that''s why everything turns from bad to worse.. yup that is true i hate me.. nothing turns right everything just got worse... well maybe to outside world i am just some lazy bum who depends on my parents for money.. well ure all wrong coz they don't even give me money sometimes i only get $2 but only after being nag at and sometimes i don't even get anything coz they say i always ask for money well usually i don't coz i wanna find a job coz i need cash well not from them coz i won't get it... maybe it's just my luck... well gotta go back to my lectures bye world