The manic up and downs of bulatic kingdom

2008-10-03T00:39:00.002+08:00

Latest Raya Pics For your View...

To view more pegi lah kat multiply...
:)

2008-04-22T22:11:00.005+08:00

Watch 3 movie

1) Duyung - Apek & Maya karin
2) 3 kingdom - Andy Lau & Sammo Hung
3) Forbidden kingdom - Jackie Chan & Jet Li

1)Duyung

What is gross is awie, in his character... I hate it when he bite
his nails... or shouls i say fingers... So un"gangter"ism... which
he is suppose to be...

Apek pulak yang super "cool" is his profession as "sea warrior"
gua tabik sama lu apek... and his singing talent extra bonus points..

Si "Mariah Carey" pulak tabik sama lu punya swimming skills....
but to me acting dia macam kaku... macam susah nak berbual...
acting tak berubah still the same as her past acting...

Overall over 5 star i give this movie **/*****
cause almost all movie yang apek starring same...
so to me macam dah bland.... season ngan acting dia and this genre

A Video for ure view

2) 3 Kingdom

Andy lau.... As per normal all his acting and all fighting

But Summo hung being a jelousy bitch... Whatever

Overall over 5 star i give this movie ***/*****
Cause well just because i want too... haha

A Video for ure view...

3) Forbidden kingdom
If you love Sun Wukong, then this movie is a must...
I like it... Well better than those other 2 movie i guess well to me...
i've always watch jackie's movie, well watch it if you want to know

Overall over 5 star i give this movie ****/*****
Almost perfect but not that perfect

Most funny scene...

Oh yah... i did watch another movie at the net
The Empress and the warrior
that movie was a love movie rather than a battle one...
was cool at the end of the story when she got to know
that the guy she love is a warrior...
well a triangle love storie watch it if you want...

GTG

toddles.... hahah

2008-04-18T00:14:00.002+08:00

Spend the whole day with him... Went to T3 Airport...
Had a very wonderful and quarrel-free day..
ow i wish every day will be like this...
Too bad my leg still hurts... or else i will "jalan2" the whole day

Still Raw pics... Too lazy and mind tiring...." mind too tired lah too tink"

2008-04-18T00:01:00.006+08:00

Raw pic without editing.... too lazy too edit coz got no mood at all....

Anyway this is what happen on the day i sprain my leg... or should i say before i sprain my leg...

AT THE ABOVE PHOTOS, ARE TOURIST I THINK FROM CHINA WASHING THEIR HAIR...
I MEAN WETTING THEIR HAIR USING THE SMALL MERLION WATER...
ARE THERE MAGIC??? MAYBE THE WATER CAN CURE HEADACHE HAHA.... WTF

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SIGNING OUT.....

2008-04-03T14:05:00.006+08:00

After watching 2 movie UNDERDOG and Superhero movie i am feeling so drowsy ; after effect of the medicine

here are some of the photos i shot at KL...

ENJOY

2008-04-03T13:50:00.002+08:00

------SICK SICK SICK-------

Not been too well lately... sick... came back from KL well it was fun... but to me it was
not really enjoyable as i have expected but i love it.... i want to go again and this time
enjoy myself more... and bring lots of cash and do more shopping... Maybe i worry too
much that i don't really enjoy myself... i think too much...

K now i am at home... Down with a cought and flu....
the doctor told me that my tonsils are biger than it should be...
gosh wonder what it means... He old me wether i am experiencing any
late nite wake ups and i told him yup... every 2 or 3 hours i will wake up...
and he told me that it is bcoz my brian is not getting the oxygen they are needing
so each time when my brain gets no oxygen it will wake me up...
Well that is scary coz how can me not getting oxygen... the doc says there is blocking possiblely
at my tonsils so there is no oxygen going to my brain and advice me to go to
a&t to have sleep therapy... at the hospital they will let me sleep and find where is the blockage
and will try to unblock it through surgery... Scarry....

Well work regarding work...
work was fine... Certis security... Admin officer and i wonder when will my pay will be the same as the rest...
iam the lowest paid there and i am wondering there.... thanks god it is contract...
well if there are converting me to a full time i am going as them to give me at least 1600 coz i have almost 2 years experience and i have advance dip in business studies... if they say no than i will find other job that will pay me that amount of salary..
don't want to let my studies away...

Friends are cool, wati ana Valerie, whom have went to israel i guess by now and stella the joker,
ida and alisa... and yak mdm lim the lady whom wants to be like us i guess but she can't
i guess that is why she is backing away from us....

well will update the photos soon...

And farah... i am so happy for you and khalid.... missing u alot

2008-03-19T01:33:00.002+08:00

Will upload more pics.... ANYWAY I AM GOING KL...... I AMSOEXCITED.... KL HEREI COME

2008-01-10T00:06:00.000+08:00

2008-01-04T00:40:00.000+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY OUT OF JOB!!!!
Well i am happy plus sad... Happy coz now i am out of that job and sad coz i don't even receive any pay for this month... very bad rite... Mayb i am just so bad luck that each time i got a job i will always be bullied and being backstabbed ... selalu kene main pantat balik... To me in this job i am always trying to improve myself. always trying to do all my work and not to left any important work to be pending.. always listen to instruction... i always try to provide goods service to customer... always try to avoid mistakes and double check my work... but i don't know why there is always someone whom make me look bad. i wonder so why... maybe they don't like me?? or is it i am so dumb that i don't see people are making a fool of me taking advantage of me all the time.. i don't know why?? why is it when some one have to cover my work they always complaint but when i have to cover their job they can still complaint that i am not doing the work good enough?? Is it i am too dumb or too gulible to accept mistakes??? I accept critisim when my boss scolded me shout at me i took it i never comlaint of working long hours or overtime. but yet i am always the one who suffers... the only mistakes that i make is that i come to work late. but she say must be there b4 10.30am... i always try to be there earlier that 10.30am dah 2 hari i reach offis right after begum put the phone down with her.. this few week i reach ofis latest 10.20. i will be late if i go take medical report or something like that. I am ery sure she will say that she sack me because i did not perform she will badmouth me to my customer. i guess dia yang dosa kan if she do that... Anyway if i really the one whom make the stupid mistake like she always say... i will accept... i don't mind she cutting my pay but if she purposely do it to cover my other workers mistakes i hope her licence will be taken away or she will not get her accreditation.... what i want is something that is fair... hopefully my other worker whom just came in can make it and not being perbodohkan...

2007-12-04T19:34:00.000+08:00

This week i a vey bad week. I hate work....
Very the stress firstly because i am always alone and my boss will be out don't know be where and the other staff will be on leave lah, this lah that lah ad there ill be work always left undone nd i don't know that it has to b done. and whe i found ou i already expird or urgently needed attention or worse that i will ge scolding coz the job is not done... and whatever there is a mistakes i am being blamed. i always felt like i am being bullied around. and my pay to me i too low compared to the job that i am doing... i a thinking onces i rceive my bonus i will try to find job. at least a job with 1k ad above pay. Got to go home it's 8pm i tink. Bu5t don't feel like going home. maybe just walk around wander around. too binggit with my mum to go home. so not understanding. hate it...

2007-11-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

Me & Him on our 7 years Aniversary

My 2nd Bdae cake celebrated with family @ my Bro house

Hari raya kisses 2007

My First Bdae cake @ Pizza Hut with my Darlz...

My life is so unpredicteble. Coz what ever that have been planned out have to change, all my plans have to change...
Di kata nak tunang bulan depan and i don't know... What we have planned is that kita tunang on 25 dec 2008 but then my mum keep on insisting that we have to tunang earlier because ( rolling my eyes...) my abg sedara dah tunang semua dah tunang and i yang dah matair dah lama tak tunang2 and i wonder how it will affect me and my status coz she kept saying that banyak orang dah tanya and dia dah malu coz i slalu keluar pada hal pada hal.... i keluar only like onces a week and that is after work and i have to be home early like b4 10pm... i habis keje 4pm sih... pethatic rite.... haiz... life... i am 22 but yet i am treated like a 12 years old kid. And work sucks... So many problems and i hate it... semua my fault because i am the full time staff and i felt like i am always being bullied around. i need more freedom in everything. i have no time to anything since i started to work here and i always have to bring home work and which i don't like... coz each time i need to bring home work my mum will nag and nag complaint and complaint.... and you know what suddently i am lazy to study... coz work is already so tiring by the time i reach school my eyes feels like closing and nothing go inside my head. Next year if i were to tunang as per schedule that is 25 dec then bila kak ipar i nikah i tak bole pegi coz cik ipok punya anak pun kawin... i don't even know which one is important but my mum say i must go my bro sedara kawin, but my guy say i must be at his sis wedding coz kita kan baru tunang and i must help out... how2... i am really torn apart... After i tunang and if my salary is still like this i am confirm difficult to kumpul duit cukup for my wedding. i am engage for 3 years and i can only say at the most 200 per month so that means 2400 for a year and for 3 years 7200 and at most kerja kawin makan duit 10 k and tu tak masok honeymoon and whatever.... so first thing i need to find a job which give me at least 1.5k per month... and i am still finding for one and the requriment kan AL must have @ least 12 days coz 7 days to me is not enough. and must have at least 2 staff excluding me coz i don't want to be like this always being stranded alone almost 40% of the time.....hopefully i can last this year without any hipcups... tapi kalau tahun ni tunang pun i don't mind lah... gatal jugak kan aku....;P

2007-06-30T01:35:00.000+08:00

have you wonder why we always look happy in pictures???
Why do we smile when taking photos even though ure sad???
why do you always have to stop ure tears from falling whenever you feel the need to cry??
why do we hurt ourself for the one we love???
Why do we have to do scarifies to make other people happy but instead you feel shattered deep inside???
why do we always make ourself feel so small all the time???
why do we make our self sad, depressed, unsatisfied just to make that some happy and to know that you are not being appreciated....

What must i do to make people happy and also make myself happy...

2007-04-08T20:59:00.000+08:00

over the weekends...

2007-03-28T11:10:00.000+08:00

i am so bothered by my dream today
i am feeling so down....
the dream take place like normal situation when i am with him
i can't remember where but what i still remember and i don't think i forget that
we were somewhere and i am giving him advice on medication, i think vit c
like i always do then suddently dia merajuk
so i pujuk dia lah cam biasa
the he says while smilling so sly and corny and say
" kenape you still call me daddy, what do you want from me?"
in a playfull mood then i realise i replied
" i don't understand why i can still seduce you even though you nak kawin in 2 days times"
then his face change ....
he look so stress up and disappointed..
he says " i dah ade home loan, i plan i nak beli rumah and put ure name as the owner so that
each time i balik keje i can come and see you"
and i replied" you nak kita matair selama2nye? you want me to be your mistress"
then he change the topic and says that the house at woodlands is good coz it's far from his in laws
and then i told him then kalau u nak beli rumah ngan ure ( looking down and in soft tone) ure wife
tak, i tak kan beli rumah untuk dia we will stay in her parents house je...

then i was awake by my alarm clock
and till now i am stil so bothered and i can't think straight
i am scared coz usually my dream do come true oneces in a while
too bothered... and i can't do my work...

and today need to follow my boss to customer house...
i want to say no but i don't know how...

2007-03-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

on the phone now with him... talking about the future ... money matters...
it's so difficult.... money money money... in singapore evey thing is money...
nak skola kene pakai duit, nak keje kene ade duit, nak kawin kene ade duit
dah kawin kene ade duit.... stress... i need to serve more customer so that
can get more commission... kalau nak cari pt job ade ke company nak amik
org only for 1 day. mane lah ade..... i am sleepy but he still wants to talk...
hee is ttalking n i am typing... n i am not concentrating oon what he is talking
but i just em... and ok only... haha bad me... ok lah gtg or else kalau dia tahu mesti
mati i ...

2007-03-20T17:59:00.000+08:00

went to 7-11an saw the april issue of manja, and taufk is at the front cover again... gosh i got no moneysih kalau tidak dah beli... i miss my guy alot and all i want to listen is to taufik singing..

seen tau's vid at his official website and i start fallingin lov again... gosh is voice is so soothing

i fall in love wif hm all over again... even though he looks bad but his voice could compensate for it.

tomorow di pop... hopefully evrything wll go well

love you syg...

2007-03-17T01:43:00.000+08:00

update on my life

2007-03-05T14:46:00.000+08:00

hello world...

well dah lama tak update... kindda of busy until i fell sick... yup i am at home...
tadi pagi went to doctor and then went to collect the shahirah hamper that i won...
in the hamper i received
1 perfume
1 set of facial product facial foam, cleanser, moisturiser cream and beauty cream
4 deodorant
4 deoderant stick
4 talcum powder
4 body spray

but 1 of the deodorant stick missing... but never mind lah

and all that is worth $77.. can u imagine...

i tink if we sell it @ the shop it cost mort than that... but shukur alhamdullilah lah...

my talcum powder an deo is also running out...

well here are some of the pics of the prizes

2007-01-12T11:49:00.000+08:00

here is a view of what my table looks like and my daily life at work..
reach here around 10am then pick up calls, do paper work, if there is a need of designing then do some designing then run errands and that's it...
i am still in the learning process... been here for 1 month plus... so far the work enviroment is ok for me...
still missing the teaching job lah... miss the kids alot.. but what to do tak de jodoh... ok lah update again coz nanti boss nampak i slaking hehe... MIss all those TTT...

2007-01-01T21:04:00.000+08:00

i felt like i am not appreciated... she told me to buy , but when i buy the thing that she wants me to buy she is not appriciative but instead she scolded me coz it's too small, no gureentee card lah too expensive lah and then she trow trantum lempar benda then marah marah and then complaintt to her husband sedih sih

2006-12-25T19:09:00.000+08:00

something i have read on the net...

have a read

Friendship Bracelet
If you delete after reading ... you'll spend a year of ill luck!
But... if you send it to (at least) two friends ... you'll have 3 years of good luck!!! ***

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?
Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?
Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:
I love you,                Sorry,                     and Help me.

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?
Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?
Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?
Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two-fold?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?
Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?
Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

But, don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself, if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned, and you know that you can help, you'll see that it will be returned in two-fold.

Today, the ball of FRIENDSHIP is in your court, send this to those who truly are your friends (including me if I am one). Also, do not feel bad if no one sends this back to you in the end, you'll find out that you'll get to keep the ball for other people want more ..

    The Lovers of the Heart  


In order to form a more perfect kiss, enable the mighty hug to promote
to whom we please but one kiss.

       Article 1 : Statement of Love: The Kiss
       1. Kiss on the hand.... I adore you
       2. Kiss on the cheek... I just want to be friends
       3. Kiss on the neck... I want you
       4. Kiss on the lips... I love you
       5. Kiss on the ears... I am just playing (i hate that)
       6. Kiss anywhere else ... lets not get carried away
       7. Look in your eyes ... kiss me
       8. Playing with your hair... I can't live without you
       9. Hand on your waist... I love you to much to let you go

       Article 2: The Three Steps
       1. Girls: If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him
       2. Guys: If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good
! ;! ; ! !      3. Guy and Girls: Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare

       Article 3: The Commandments
       1. Thou shall not squeeze to hard.
       2. Thou shall not ask for a kiss, just give one or take one.
       3. Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.


    Article 4: How to French Kiss
            Here's How:
1. Set the scene. Make sure that the mood and time are right.
2. Relax! Take a deep breath and let go of any tension in your neck and shoulders.
3. Put your arms around the person you want to kiss.
4. Start off with a normal kiss, not too firm, not too aggressive. Closing your eyes is optional.
5. In mid kiss, gently open your mouth and softly nudge the other persons mouth open using your tongue.
6. Again, not too aggressively, move your tongue inside the other persons mouth and playfully touch their tounge.
7. Read the other persons body language, if they seem tense or start to pull away, stop what you are doing.
8. If they open their mouth more or otherwise indicate they like the kiss, keep on doing what you have been only with a little more passion.
9. As the kissing gets going saliva build up can be a problem, don't forget to swallow.
10. Make sure you keep your tongues relaxed but your lips tight (saliva again), you don't want the kiss to turn messy.
 Tips:
1. Don't forget to breathe.
2. Since French Kissing is "wetter" than other kinds of kissing it is a good idea to start with dry lips, don't lick them first.
3. If one of you have braces you can still French Kiss, you just have to be more careful and not as forceful when things get passionate.
4. If both of you wear braces you can still French Kiss, you just have to be very gentle and avoid touching teeth.
5. French Kissing takes practice, but at least it is fun to practice this one!
  

       **Remember**         A peach is a peach         A plum is a plum,         A kiss isn't a kiss without some tongue         so open up your mouth,         close your eyes,         and give your tongue some exercise!!!  

                
WELL here's a few reasons why guys like girls...
    1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo
       2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder
       3. How cute they look when they sleep
       4. the ease in which they fit into our arms
       5. the way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world
       6. How cute they are when they eat
       7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end makes it all worth while
       8. because they are always warm even when its minus 30 out side
       9. the way they look good no matter what they wear
       10. the way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
       11. How cute they are when they argue
       12. the way her hand always finds yours
       13. the way they smile
       14. the way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight
       15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later you will be arguing about something
       16. the way they kiss when you do something nice for them
       17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you'
       18. Actually ... ! ! ju! ! st the way they kiss you...
       19. the way they fall into your arms when they cry
       20. then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
       21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
       22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt . (even though we don't admit it)!
       23. the way they say "I miss you"
       24. the way you miss them
       25. the way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not.   Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound,you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of theheart.

2006-12-24T20:45:00.001+08:00

today i really felt the " i miss you even though ure right here with me"...
today miss him very much... i wanna meet him but i don't feel like to... i am mixed up... i'm quite sad that i felt like he is ignoring me... i don't know???

2006-12-24T20:45:00.000+08:00

2006-12-24T01:46:00.000+08:00

LOVE IS NOT SOMETHING BY FORCE BUT IT GROWS FROM NOTHING TO SOMETHING
YUP , i am sad sejak dia masok he seems like ignoring me... i don't feel like he is treating me the same... sometimes he ignores me... i don't know how to explain but i felt like he is ignoring me and i felt like i am important to him anymore, i am just someone who is part of his life, but does not means much to him.... i felt neglected even though he is right beside me... he is not consent about me anymore... i don't want to tell him all this coz i am scared he will be hurt, kecewa. slalunye he knows when i lapar or when i am bored but since he booked in he is like devoided of my feelings... Am i being too insensitive to his feelings , am i being over reacting ... or is he being too unconcered about his ns... now i know how it felt, TO MISS SOMEONE EVEN THOGH HE IS RIGHT BESIDE U...

2006-12-22T16:57:00.000+08:00

some designing i did for my boss new company
but there is someone who insist that the logo look plain and wants me to do a new on... but my boss like it so much... hahaha and i won't waste my time doing another logo because of that someone...

2006-12-22T16:49:00.000+08:00

now i am in the office... well got so many things to do lah... well i have to finish up the excel and print it out, i have to clear the employer bio yg lama, need to file in new bio, find out the wireless broadband for my company and i have to rewrite the packages... in mist of everything i have to photostate my boss bank statements and first i have to find it then i have to write down the clonclusion as to which package is the best and why. but the one that i have finish is i have done all the bio typing and printing. I have called up all the internet provider and now only need to review all the packages, have already sorted out which bio goes to which file... i have finish photostating all the documents so now i am sitting down just wanna do the sorting of the extra's bio and then i will do the internet conclusion stuff then i will do the clearing of old bio... i guess writing down the packages besok bleh buat lah... well my back hurts i don't know why??? maybe coz i am wearing heels now... haha k lah gtg... can't wait for my pay day so that i can buy imran's and erra's album... can't wait.... sih.... gtg...

2006-12-19T16:55:00.000+08:00

TODAY IN THE OFFICE I DID NOTHING AT ALL. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO...
bukan ape. tak de kerja nak buat. i did the precious touch stamp and then help kak jumi do her logo but still i find that
the logo is not nice. something is mising. anyway i miss faizal sih everytime is see couple holding hand i teringat sih ngan dia... i heard bad news about my cuz... her bf tunang ngan org lain... oh gosh ... i felt sad for her... i hated guys like tat. i know she relly likes him but why must he do this to her.. so sad but true... cuz... u must hold on... k anyway tak nak post panjang2 coz i am in the office rite now takut kene tangkap hehe... bye...

2006-12-19T00:48:00.000+08:00

been a week since my guy to ns... well do miss him coz slalunyekan berdua ni dah seorang2... got a job at maid agency... work as admin there, so far life there have been easy. Got a designing job too from my boss. i have to design her company namecard, logo, envolope and all those coporate stuff... well gtg... gonna update soon...

2006-11-30T05:39:00.000+08:00

Hi there Those readers... haha hehta2 tak de org yg baca hehe... dah lama tak update eh
Sebenarnye i just don't feel like touching the computer and all...
i have been lazy sejak yg raya... Since i lost my previouse job.. i kindda of give up searching for job...
but i need to rite!!! kalau tidak tak de duit... tak le keluar...
well not really at all lazy lah after 2 weeks of raya, i went job hunting.... cari keje kat watson, guardian, shop and save, giant,
NTUC... Factory... dah interview 3 factory... jus tadi i went for the maid agency punya interview...
bukan interview jadi maid lah but sales admin cum coordinator... And semua kata tunggu call...
binggit bercampur tak puas hati... apasal eh masih tak dapat keje lagi...
bila apply factory dorang tanya apasal i diploma holder nak keje factory bila interview keje office
because i ni pakai tudung lah ni lah... nak apply metro dorang tengok badan. yang lain pulak apahal kan..
bukan nak mengadu nasib or ape... just CONFUSED!!! bila kita belajar tak tinggi sanggat such as n atau o level dorang tak pandang...
macam takde standard gitu lah, bila blajar poly, ade kata ,such as factory operator, blajar tinggi sanggat lah...
Then kalau i nak masok those designing industries dorang kebanyakan nak chinese speaking as a must...
bila cam hari tu dapat jadi cikgu, contract kene dissolve because i tinggal jauh... just say that u look down on ITE Grads sudah lah...
i pun amik diploma is to prove that ite grads dapat diploma jugak ... but henta lah.. so many things

that we will not understand... that day i gi seminar and they told us... tat dulu bila zaman 90an 10 job is to 1 people tapi zaman sekarang 10 people is to 1 job... and i find it damn true... haiz... how do we compete with those experience people coz
sekarang semua nak experience preffered then how about fresh graduTES...
oh... employer will say that fresh gradutes must speak mandarin... so that means only chinese or should i say mandarin speaking fresh grads only will get the job lah... those non mandarin speaking will do those menial and so called dirty job... what's worse is those tudung fresh grades... they are worse because employers will ask will u willing to open ure tudung??? if we say no... well there goes our job oppurtunities
so how to survive??? Must we open our tudung and then can work??
like that better make a rule that bends tudungism means no job for them...
hahaha... i don't know.. not trying to be what-so-ever... but i guess if they (employer) will give fair chance to those non mandarin speaking, non experience and tudungism a chance too...
haiz....

k now i am in a different mood not about job but my relationship...
my guy is going NS this 9 DEC 06... i want to sent him but i am scared i can't wake up...
pagi dok... he will be leaving his house kul 7am...
i don't want him in future nanti cakap that " girl aku tak antar aku bila aku masok NS"
i feel bad lah but i guess it is better not to send him coz i am scared i cry...
too me biar tak jumpa and just let me cry in silence where he won't see me crying coz
i know if he see me cry he will cry too... why is it people always say that bila a guy masok NS
one of tem will berubah... is it just a myth?? macam ghost story to scared people up...
i ingat lagi bila time secondary i told him that sebelum dia masok NS kita nak tunang
then bila dia habis NS kita kawin... i don't know that it will be this hard... Yelah kalau nak tunang kene ade duit...
bila nak kawin kene ade duit... need to have a job ye lah lepas kawin kene ade duit coz...
nak beli rumah lah..... then bila beli rumah kene beli furniture lah ... then bila dah complete nanti ade anak... nak beranak kene ade duit...
THEN the main problem is nak kawin buakan murah sih... maybe up to 20k... for both party... or maybe more...
kalau dut kawin dah ade... tak kan lepas nbayar semua then duit dah habis kan...
too many things to think about ... so macam mana nak kumpul duit kalau tak keje... betul tak???

and he is always asking me about will i miss him???
will i leave him and all that nonsence...
kadang2 because of those questions pun boleh gaduh...
do i need to promise him all the time...
i am tired of making the same promises all over again...
he knows that i will not leave him...
he knows that i will love him...
he knows that i want ot marry him...
but why is he so insecure????
why it is not as if i am miss universe ke or those preety chicks whom hang out with guys
or have lots of friends...
i am not like what he thinks i will be bila dia masok NS...
Why does he still feel insecure even though kita dah 6 years together???
he should know me better kAN...
OR HE STILL DON'T TRUST ME???
i don't know lah... i trust him alot... i do...
i know i will not leave him or what so ever nonsence that he have heard...
coz i love him alot.... REALLY ALOT!!!
BUt i don't know what to say to make him feel the same way....
maybe time will prove all...
INSYAALLAH... MAY ALLAH PROTECT HIM ALL THE WAY!!!!

2006-11-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

don't you tink they look alike???
well i tink they do even though my sis don't agree..
each time i he came to the screen i will say eh hady dah keluar and she will say tak lah hady muka lain...

darm... jabez just came in and told us about the major project...
And we only have 1 month to finish everything and it's like darm... i can't finish it...

i don't know... been in a very good mood to day but the news is like someone trew a a water bag straigh to my face... haizz... i don't know what to do and the deadline for the proposal id 15th nov...

gtg lah...

2006-11-02T19:17:00.000+08:00

well long time tak blog.. well been feeling lazy sih.. and kindda sick... slamat raya untuk org2 yang membaca haha dah brapa minggu baru nak ucap kan.. hehe k lah so far raya was quite ok, just that too many probs... well one of it is that people tengok kita macam berada just becoz kita pindah ke rumah yg besar... so people began to speak dari blakang... tapi org tak tahu susah nye kita.. next is family ampak macam the hapi2 type but deep inside org tak tahu ape prob yg telah melanda...haha bukan nak mengadu nasib lah just saying... well as for skarang pun i am still jobless so kindda job hunting, went to apply lots of jobs kat net and so far none... maybe the guy maideen from mendaki pun dah malas nak tanya i lagi pasal my status , maybe dia ingatkan i am joking play2 je nak keje padahal2 takpe lah...

so now i am in class so far only 5 of us and i am the only girl as per usual... so kindda bored...

so i had a bad dream for like sejak shawal start... the latest was i got fed up of my anak2 sedara and i putus hubungan nagn my kak ipar which was.... karut... and i also dreamed of white ants... i kene gigit ngan white ants and i also got the solution that is to pakai api hahah it's a weird dream but very scary.. i woke up and terus tak boleh tido lagi sih...

so now i am kindda drowsy... macam nak muntah henta lah maybe the lack of sleep but i slalu tido siang... around 10pm and then i sleep..

k lah gtg class dah start

2006-10-15T06:31:00.000+08:00

i am browsing a website an i found some icons but i am too lazy to upload at blogger coz it's too slow maybe u can check it out at my multiply... i am thinking too much.. i want to meet him tomorow but too bad he can't make it... i really want to meet him.. i don't want him to know that... he did ask me wether i really want him to follow but i just say it's ok if u can't make it... bad... too bad

2006-10-15T05:27:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to say or what to do.. ok leet me remember from a to z

him: hi, ngah buat ape?
me: Ngah makan kuih ye..
before i can talk further he interupted
him: eh i ada good news tau, well to me lah tak tahu pulak you
me: erm... ape?? Is it....
interupted again
him: i dah dapt surat ns tau, i masok on 9 dec pukul 9am kat tekong, i ada dapat 5 family ticket tau satu untuk ayah, satu untuk mak, satu untuk kakak kalau abg fauzie nak ikut then ade lagi satu ticket tapi i save kan satu ticket untuk u... U datang ikut kan..
me: erm..
interupted again
him: u mesti kene ikut tau.....
he went on talking but my mind was somewhere else thinking and i don't even remeber what he is talking...
him: u kene datang rumah i pagi tau coz i kene sampai tekong kul 9am, kita naik boat...
a long pause....
me: oh ok... i tot kene gather kat pasir ris then naik bus macam slalu org lain
him: oh tak... tu kalau reservist after the 2 month...
me: oh....
him: you ikut eh??? ( not a question but an order, i guess???)
me: insyaallah... haizz...
Him: Nanti Nov kita leh celebrate aniversary kita kan?
me: (thinking bout my birthday, do he remember it at all?)
him: ok lah i meet you on monday k.. kita buka luar?
me: ade duit ke??
him: (laughing) tengok dulu lah... klau tidak jumpa je..
me: ok..

then we put down the phone...

i don't know what to think.. Shoulld i be happy? Should i be sad? he has been waiting for a long time to masok ns and he is preety excited about it.. i don't know kind of scared too..yyelah banyak org kata kalau lelaki masok ns nanti berubah... ade yg cari lain ade yg dah boring ngan matair haiz... i don't know what to think... should i follow and sent him to tekong or should i not? i don't want to cry or whatever i don't know he have to go... maybe i must not think of the negative.. dulu pun dia tinggal kan i for 2 month untuk attachment kat melaka... i tink everythink should be just fine... i promise you sayang i akan setia... hope you too...

2006-10-06T00:56:00.000+08:00

i am not satisfied with what i read a yesterday so i went back to my cousin blog and read each word carefullly... i am quite confused with what she says and i want to know but... i don't want to ask, i scared she tinks i kpo hehe, if ure reading this u must be laughing sih,but thats how i felt... she is much closer to mak and bak coz dulu she stay with them... i am not that i close, i guess... but i miss mak coz i can talk to her... about everything... even i am not that close... she is the one whom encourage me to go haji.. even when she know i don't know anything... the last time i saw her i was shocked she has diabetes, haizz.... it pains me when she has to pock that needle to her stomach and she always say jgn tengok bila mak nak cocok... and i remember how she teaches me how to cook bubur serawe and jalan2 gi ruma sedara2 yup do miss her... she is caring, but then she had a hard time staying wif my bro... which i am quite sad, misunderstanding i guess, mak kata kak radia tak suka dia... and kak radia cakap mak tak suka dia a real miscommunication and my brother was real sad when she pack her bag and disappear... mak also always update me of my cousin farah, as to what she is doing and who she is going out with... always have fun talking to her about u farah hehe... and i always says, "alah mak farah kan lawa mesti lah dia senang nak cari peganti " when she ask me where my cousin farah always get her guys and then we laugh... haha but that's tthe fact... My cousin farah is a preety girl... cantik, tinggi lampai very understanding and always smile... but to bad guys she is emotionally attached to caca ,hehe i remember his name is zul but prefer to call him caca hehe. i have always know their relationship will work out coz she really loves him... dorang macam pinang dibelah dua hehe can't wait to makan nasi minyak dorang... best wishes to them.. ingat nak gi balik canada jgn lupa oleh2 for me hehe... well one hell of a day with emotional roller coaster and what shit i lost my precious thumdrive... got to save money to buy new one which i don't know when i will get one... haizzz... bad karma... gtg

mak and faizal

my beautiful cousin farah

something for her...

2006-10-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

today i've blog many times.... not sure of how i felt i am quite depressed then suddently my my cousin msn me and say that my dad called her.. and maybe meeting themm on 15 or 16... oh i am so excited sih... but i am scared do he want to meet me or will i be the menyebok je when i follow her to meet them? oh god... i am confused... should i go??? or ...... haiz....

2006-10-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

the latest photo of elysa umairah.... She made me forget about my sadness... especially when she smile... cute... my mum say she look like me hehe tak kan lah ... i am not that white sih.. hehe

2006-10-05T21:06:00.000+08:00

here a short thanks note for you cousins...

i really appreciate your blog entry, it really mean alot to me... gosh i felt like crying sih... but i can't coz i am in public yup i am in class... i have been through so much with my family... everyone seems to hate each other and i don't even remember anything pleasant about them first start with the divorce and then i can't meet my own blood anymore... my grandpa pass away and everyone whom is seems to be siblings became strangers and then my step father family seems so perfect but it is totally argg... frustating... they tend to be good infront of people but they have so many deep dark secret then my uncle and all that and every body problems became my problems because they will all talk to me about it an d make me bacame the middle man... idiot i hate it... then it seems that everybody that is close to mee seems to dift apart so far away. Then came the family quarrel not only my mum side but both... no happy family renuion or whatever... i seems to hate everyone and when i do my own soul searching i don't even remember as to why do i hate them and what had cause the hateness in my heart... i have hated too many people till i lost myself too much... it's been hard life... people say i change but one but alot of them they say that i've change alot since i came back but the trust is i am lost in my own feelings and thought i miss the closeness... yup i received a tight slap just that tuesday for speaking my mind and now i am totally confused as to why.. yup nowadays i do say sorry to everyone even i know it's not my fault coz they always make it feels like it is my fault and i am really confused about me and my feelings that i don't even know when to get angry... so i made up my mind let everything taht have past go and just start a new which is kindda hard right know... every one seems to have their own expectation of me and i have to live up to their expectation... they all seems to know what i am how i behave how i feels everytime which makes me so confused as to how i really feels... honey... i love for your feelings coz we both know how we actually feels rite wawa... we are suppose to be close but yet we are drifted apart well... thanks ones more wawa and a big thanks to my guy coz he really always help me and advise me whenever it needs... love u lotsss... both of you...

here is what my closest person have to say...
Dear Cousin,

I pray that both you and your family are in the best of health. I read your blog and am very sorry for what that had recently took place. I hope that everything will be fine. Amin.

Im happy that you tagged me that particular message. I'm glad that you still remember me and that you still do read my blog to know what's happening in my life. At least I know you care.

Yes, I received a call from your father after so many years of his disappearance. I couldn't even remember when was the last time I saw him what more conversations we ever had. As you have read from my entry, he asked me how was I doing. I guess Mak was the one who gave him my number. Felt very touched when he called. Almost couldn't believe that I'm actually talking to him. I thought someone was playing a prank on me but these kind of things are not subjects to be joking about.

I remember you telling me that you only had one picture of him left. Had the intention to look into the cupboard full of albums and siphon for photographs of your dad and for you. Thing is that I don't have the time yet. Maybe we should get together one day and do it. Sometime soon...But please, don't be disappointed if we can't find any. At least we tried.. And if not,we will try to find pictures from other relatives.

This is a promise.

I somehow understand the feeling of loss that you have been carrying with you all these while.. because someone close left without leaving a trail but just small pieces of puzzle which is almost impossible to complete.

Remember those times we spent together?
Going back to your house everyday after school. You coming over to sleep or play. Having our meals together. Going everywhere together. Remember how Mak really took care of us?

I really miss those times.
Growing up made both of us go seperate ways but the bond and love we developed over the years spent together would never be lost.
I still love you the way i did 10 years back.

I hope that one day, we can break this tension our family is having. I want to bring everyone back together. I want to spend raya with my family, your family .. Mak and Bak.
Things have been so complicated.

There is so much to be done but so little that we can do.

I wish you all the best.
Do call me if you need someone to talk to.

With lots of love,
Wawa.

2006-10-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

some pics for your view...

2006-09-29T01:08:00.000+08:00

long time never blog sih... kind of sick of this troublesome life so just taking life so easy and simple that is spent my time with di... So many things happen this month which is i tink because of my bad luck coz i have alot of bad karma lately... Not doing any charity work i guess, ignoring those mass tin people whom is hunger for coins... fist big blow is that i was terminated from my work, yup a very big blow but i guess i have seen it coming coz they gave a suspension letter and then terminate me... then my phone line kene potong... really bad coz i am applying for a job... then my hp spoilt gosh... too mush bad karma around me... just today my shoe broke but thanks god i am about to reach home, kat bus stop... i am so ... haiz... don't know what to say... well so now trying to find a job coz need to pay bills and beli baju raya...

K for today meet a few of my old friend... Firstly imeet rizal, my old admire from eunos primary... then i meet my old best friend ayu from eaunos primary... hahah then i met fahmi moktar from eunos primary and bnss and his girlfriend is someone called diana, of course very familiar and dia kata kita selalu lepak sesame kat bedok... and i ... of course tak ingat sape dia haha i am a very bad friend...

Then just walk around geylang finding something to eat for sahur but all we do is buy drinks and more drinks coz we are so hungry... i mean so thirsty hehe..

k for yesterday i went ot woodlands nye bazaar to help di's sister kat bazaar jual nasi ayam penyet... best jugak lah tapi lelaki sana mentel maut sih... later i wil post the pics...

2006-09-18T03:18:00.000+08:00

Dia telah menentukannya
Kita bertemu dan bercinta
Inilah oh takdirnya
Bukan kerana harta
Inilah citra cahaya cinta

Pintu hatiku telah kau buka
Tak mampu ku menafikannya
Kejujuran diberi kasih takkan terhenti
Ini bahagia yang ku cari

Sayangi daku
Peluklah daku
Janji denganku
Semai cinta nan satu

Tuhan menguji
Takkan berhenti
Hanya ku pinta
Sama setia menjaga hingga ke alam syurga

Dia telah menentukannya
Kita bertemu dan bercinta
Inilah oh takdirnya
Bukan kerana harta
Inilah citra cahaya cinta
Ooh.....

Sayangi daku
Peluklah daku
Janji denganku
Semai cinta nan satu

*After menghayati the lyrics and the emotions that siti mencurah while singing ,
it's so powerful..... sungguh mendalam cintanya.... i hope datuk tak kan memainkan
perasaan siti... i can feel the same feeling as to how siti felt while singging... totally can relate...

2006-09-18T02:33:00.000+08:00

today was great went out with my family and guy went to kenduri.... well he's not feeling that well... then took some photos... haha welll malas nak upload coz i know my sis will confirm upload in her multiple so buat ape buat work 2 kali kan... well today dia ade shalet... gerek sih but he did not let me go with him because he says that this is an all guys event... so tak pe lah, let him enjoy onces in a while, lagipun nanti dia nak kene pegi ns... well mesti he is having the time of his life... enjoy maut lah tadi i kol him he says that dia tengah baca buku je kat one of the bilik with his friends, well hope his friends don't influence him to drink or smoke sih... hopefully lah... well he should know how to take care of himself lah dia dah besar...

Well my suspension is about to due and by tue or wednesday will be back in the office. how i wish the suspension is longer hehe, miss time at home,but what to do must work, kalau tidak tak de duit, betul tak lagi pun dah nak raya need money... harap2 gaji maintain lah kalau tidak mampus sih tak de duit time raya, skarang bukan dapat tau but i dah kene kasi... so haizzz hopefully lah , skarang pulak hp tak de line dah kene potong:'( need to pay all thenn can use back... miss those times... well this week suppose to meet my ite best buds but too bad 2 of them are busy with ns thingy coz they are involve in the imf stuff the other one MIA... kalau tidak ade renuion sih... miss them and i miss all the fun that i had when i am still schooling.

Ok as u can see in my wish list i added in new stuff and one of them is that i wanna take degree hahaha... macam ade duit gitu eh... coz i remember that my parents told me kalau nak amik degree kene pakai duit sendiri coz, tak mampu lah... it coz $14k u imagine lah... maybe i will try to save as much or maybe simpan je lah duit kawin hehe budget kawin pun around that figure jugak hehehe... can't sleep lah... tak tahu apasal.... kalau tido siang kan bole bangun siang tapi tak i can't sleep ... nanti kul 4-6am baru bole tido... which is not god kan... nanti dah start keje mampus sih.... mesti ngantuk maut sih... haizzz.

k lah reflection on what i have achive this week 1. buat 2 cupcakes satu choc chip and other one is cuppcakes buah2 2. buat apam lala... very the nice outcome....

hehe k lah good bye.....

2006-09-14T17:14:00.000+08:00

Message: You might agree with it, but
when it
actually
happens 99% of girls dont realize it till it is
too late and that guy who did it is so
frustrated that
he has moved on to someone who will take
notice.

From a guys point of view:

We don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some
random guy walks into the room and you jump
up
and tackle him, without even introducing us,
yeah,
it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him
for
ten minutes without even acknowledging the
fact
that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the
morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing
is
that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till
the
morning.
_________________________________________
_
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/
gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
_________________________________________

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.

LET US PAY FOR YOU!

DON'T "FEEL BAD"

We enjoy doing it.

It's expected.

Smile and say "thank you."
_________________________________________
_

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's
looking,
we'll be more impressed.
_________________________________________
_

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place,
you
don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest
skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup
you
own.

We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you
are.

honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful
when
she's just in her pj's. or my tshirt and boxers,
not
all dolled up
_________________________________________
_

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in
it.

Don't get angry easily.
________________________________________

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt,
Brad
Pitt, or Jesse McCartny is in front of us.

It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.
_________________________________________
_

Whatever happened to the
word "handsome"/"beautiful"

I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/
stud/
cutie/sexy" or whatever else you can think of.

on the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like
it
ether ; )
_________________________________________
_

Girls, I cannot stress this enough:

IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A
GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH
HIS SORRY, DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-
POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO
WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're
at
your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you
make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad
you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what theyre doing just
to
look you in the
eyes....and say "i love you" ...

....AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!

2006-08-30T16:43:00.000+08:00

this whole week is hectic. i got another warning letter and plus penalty... that means half of my allowance gone... i don't know lah too stressful with the management not the job. the boss is not understanding and what ever they say is right aND we cannot give reasond because what ever we say is treated as not true.
i love the kids.. i think i will be given the last warning very soon and i don't know why, just have the feeling and i hate it. i love the job but the management sucks... since i started this job i have been so miserable they treat us like animals without feelings whatever they decide for us we have to follow. idiots sih.. k lah that's all for today... :(

2006-08-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

i am not happy and i am not sad but i am boredddddddddddddddddd like mad..........
i am bored with my life ... why??? still can ask why is it.... ok before you think there is something wrong with me i must make it clear that i will not commit any suicide or what ever i am just having this bored-like-mad-syndrom, coz i have no money, no life and too many stuff to finish by end of this month and i don't think i can finish all of that... haizz.. just so tired and sometimes no mood to do anything
just feel like sleeping only... ok busy now lecture started already .... here come stress

2006-08-22T15:39:00.000+08:00

dah lama tak blog sih.. ye lah busy wif work and now i am sick... yup blocked noce headache and all dia punya kaum kerabat. but i cannot take mc coz nanti gaji kene potong. well nyari i have to relief satu full time trainer kat siglap sec... came here by cab coz tak tahu macam mana nak datang sini. well not teaching today just help invigilate budak sec 3 nye test but the test does not even look like a test. the teachers here are very friendy. but budak2nye take advantage. i don't seems to jumpa aisyah coz she is in this school but i think i saw her guy tadi .. kalau tak salah lah... tapi this guy selekeh semacam .... baju ter keluar sana terkeluar sini then rambut kusut masai. hahah kalau ye pun sori aishah hehe anyway b4 i went for the invigilating thingy the other trainer told me that the class is super naughty and will use vulgar word. well i was kind of scared but when i went to the class it was not that bad after all. well the did use vulgar words but not as naughty as those primary school kids lah... dorang ni semua terkawal lah. hahah banyak melayu sih skola ni bleh sih the ratio here is 5 malay is to 2 chinese.... banyak kan... well kat skola sini not much to do lah just come and sit at the desk then kene tolong pin up surat khabar.. transfer infomation to discattes and yup... that's it that's all... harap2 the reliefing is only 1 day coz kalau besok kene lagi i have to reach school at 7am... please tak rarat... penat pindah and kenduri belum lagi hilang and i don't have enought sleep at all. all the eye bags and panda eyes are here to stay... well i kind of like tis kind of job... relaxing lah tak stress sanggat. maybe i have not felt the real working tak??? coz i am now only part time and when i got the full time position maybe baru merasakan bahang nye hehehe... well siraj hari tu tak datang lah... ehehe he's ccute niwae *wink shafiqah jgn bilang dia eh... malu sih... hehe it's a secret between us heheh well hope he's ok lah... with all that problem... ngantuk sih i don't evn know what to do now.. so that's why i blog panjang cam gini... all the nonsense stuff ... k lah maybe i should start on my flash project... still thinking what game must i choose.... i need to pass sih kalau tidak mapus dah lah yg video editing markah confirm kene potong coz lambat hantar tapi aku dah antar sih... dorang kata tak antar... pe sih... k lah nanti balik macam tak nak pehi MIS sih... macam nak balik sih... haizz.... too tired...

2006-08-17T21:48:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating for a long time here are some of the reasons as to why i never update... firstly every day when i reach home it was already late and all i can think is my bed... secondly i am having a very bad week which i wish i will not remember but will also tell you what later... and lastly i am not a my best mood.
ok now i'll tell you why i am having a bad week . firstly i was scolded by my big boss, and what is my mistake, becoz i save my work at the computer and went back to take it when there is another class in the lab. firstly i must say that the class have not started the lesson yet and even the computer is not on yet. and becoz of that the f******g guy shout at me... i was really sad that i cried in class... come on tell me is it a very big crime??? until i am being shout at... k lah gtg

2006-08-10T10:00:00.000+08:00

today reach my office damn early sih. i reach raffles @ 8.10. got one funny incident. while i was happily listening to mp3 and waiting for the train door to open suddently one woman who is standing beside me suddently fainted.. god i was so shocked ma, then everyone around her panicked like mad, then 2 women on my right try to carry her up but she seems to be unconsience then i try to wake her up by shaking her shoulder. then like magic she just pick her self up went out of the cabin and went up the escalator. like nothing happen sih... gosh, then everything like normal but there i am shocked like mad.... haha what a weirdo

2006-08-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

today was the worse day firstly my dad transfer money late so i went to work late then wait for the mrt but the mrt too full so wait for the next train but the next train is also full so i got no choice but to take the third train . the third train was also full but i manage to squeeze my way in, so i reach work late @ 9am then i was called by the big boss and was given the first warning letter, then have to go lunch late then lost my way around the building , today was the worse day ever man... well i don't know what to say .. i'll try to come early lah next time... i will really try... but don't know lah they don't even ask why i come late or watever... they don't think of us at all.. well that's all i wanna say today lah... bad day.... :(

2006-08-08T14:52:00.000+08:00

Where do you live? A new home in Singapore
Latest addiction? ngage
Song that you're listening right now? in class can not listen to music
What are you doing right now? typing...
Who was the last person you went out to eat with? yesterday went lunch with diana and pey wei
If you were a toy, what would you be? toy? an adorable toy??
Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? thailand maybe, or australia ...
What's your ringtone? changing my phone so in the mean time i just silent
What do you think a toblerone is? chocolate lah
What are you wearing right now? baju and seluar ..... i'm in class lah
Do you wear contacts? yep.
What was the best advice ever given to you? reach in school early or a heavier punishment will be given to you
Can you drive? maybe
What are your plans?collect 20k by 4 years hahaha
Favourite Film? anythng scary
Do you like to dance? yup, sometimes depend on my mood
Are you too shy to ask anyone out? nope.
Worst feeling in the world? losing my love
Worst sound? noise
What's the first thing you do when you wake up? check the time
Roller coaster, scary or exciting? scary, i am afraid of height
How many times do you let the phone ring before you answer it? 2 times sometimes
Is the glass half full or half empty? half full bottle
Your best physical feature? my heart.. hahaha
Milk or white chocolate? milk
Day or Night? night.
Summer or winter? summer
Cake or pie? cake.
Diamonds or pearls? none
Sunrise or sunset? both
Have you ever broken a bone? nope.
You hate people who are? liar, arrogant
Do you believe in fighting? nope.
What skill do you wish you had? a strong heart and more patient.
Where are your favourite places? anywhere quiet
Who sent you last sms? di
Last sms you sent to? di
Last person you talked on the phone?my mum
Last Person whom you chatted with last night? di
Last photos you took with friends? wow... very long time ago
any plans of going out? aft class today am jus going home.
What would you do after answering this bulletin? by den class should end. so i'll jus be heading home
Your tag victims? i dunno shd i or not. see first

2006-08-04T15:53:00.000+08:00

know what after teaching for 3 weeks i think i like teaching sec sch becoz they can displine them self and not asking soo much question and not saying nonsence stuff. godh today was the most terrible day of teaching becoz even when i scold them they still still act as if nothing is wrong and they tend to show their innocense face. there is this one girl whom can't stop talking i think she can take over me.. coz she talk more than me. so i have taught 2 class today 2h and 2e.
2h was so noisy that when i say if you don't keep quiet now you will have to stand the whole class. well what do you think of course they stand the whole class coz they could not keep quiet at all and they don't mind. for 2e they are not noisy but they ask too much questions and give too many comment until i don't know what to say... even their form teacher scolded them to stop talking nonsence.. gosh i do miss juying sec 1a3... for me they are the best class i ever taught... too bad lah i am only part time trainer. the good part is teaching but the bad part is that i need to do technical stuff such as installing ram lah repair computer lah and the other lah lahs... haha kind of like this job.. maye i would stay longer than 2 years or maybe not. or course there is no life lah gtg... students here

2006-08-04T13:05:00.000+08:00

today is friday... hehe today i was sent to west grove primary school. the school is near juying lah so not much difficult to come here but the timing to go home is 6.20... punya lah lambat sih... nyari lak kene ajar computer wellness. untuk budak primary 2 tu yg pening tu. then nanti cikgu dia pun ade tu yang seram kalau nanti dorang kasi feedback rabak pengsan aku adui... pulak tu kene ajar computer wellness that is computer safty lah .. tak tahu lah bole tidak itu lah yg mengancong kan... yg paling boring nyari ade 3 class bukan 1 tau... that's why habis lambat sih... niwae can't wait to buy new phone... ngage at last dapat pakai same phone ngan di... i am excited... tapi at the same time seram jugak lah coz nanti mama marah ke ape ke... aniway sat i pindah.. so after work then kalam kabut balik rumah...k lah got to go... nanti kalau ade time free i will update lagi in the mean time wanna do nadia's logo heheh.....

2006-08-01T23:51:00.000+08:00

for the past 2 years have been a happy year for me... it's been 2 years and i almost forgot you but suddently you came back... now i realise that i do miss him.... gosh... why do i still feel this way.. it's bad....... very2 bad.... what should i do... i wish that ... no i do want to contact him... but ... too complicated... i do want to talk to him always i hope but.... haiz....well that's all i want to eat and sleep... phong... puttaphong srithap.... hunter

2006-07-29T10:55:00.000+08:00

Today there is class @ ACP. In class now.. So sleepy almost can't do the exercises that the teacher gave me... So forced myself to drink coffee. i've banned myself from coff coz later i got headache. But have to drink in order nto to fall asleep... gosh long day today after class meet di @ lau pa sat for dinner i guess. but it's ok lah maybe becoz of yesterday i went back home later got prefect investiture and then reach home about 12am... then i don't even have appetite to eat at all. my key role at the prefect investiture is camerawomen hehe i like... i like to take photo so that task is not so demanding lah but the demanding part is to use camera that is so professional which i have to learn how to use in half and hour is demanding.. even whan the ceremony starts i still did not get the hang of how to use the camera . it's so weird coz when i use in auto mode the picture is so black even when i use flash when i use the night mode the picture turn out to be so shacky. then when i use the anti shake modewow it's not suppose to be shaky but the picture ws so blur.. so well i just stick to the auto mode. sO JUUST SNAPPED PHOTO the photos... gosh iam so sleepy and i can't take it i feel like wanna go home ans sleep .. my eyes felt like burning sih just waiting to close my eyes and fall into a deep sleeep.
i can't stand need i need to wake up but i am too sleepy... binggit lah... tak le concentrate on my work...

2006-07-28T13:33:00.000+08:00

Hi there yup me here... this is me.. haha i'm bored with nothing to do really all my jobs have finish, the new trainer have went back home and here i am still alone in this room. well good bye juying... No need to wake up at 6am anymore... no need to rush so that iw on't miss the bus.. good bye standing in an overcrowded mrt just to reach there @ 8am.... Hahaha so now kindda of thingking where will they post me next.. Well eventually pity the new trainer... he, yes it's a he... hahaha stay at simei.... much more further than me... so haha here come his torturement... i wonder what time do he need to wake up... let him have the taste well he will get use to it soon i week and everything is like a lifetime for him... haha
anyway newspaper are all about siti and i kind of like felt irritated... tak de ke bende lain dorang nak tulis.. how bout the lastest earthquake kat indon... they don't write bout it, instead write about that old man... well whatever... i hate her... coz she lied to all her fans... and i hate liar... well below are pics of what my office 2 weeks home look like....

This is how my desk look like... clean right...

This one my TA's room but she always away.... so messy right compared to mine...

Spaces around me...

Well i have the room all by myself most of the time... well gonna blog later...

2nd last day

2006-07-27T17:12:00.000+08:00

Well kindda sad really been here for 2 weeks and then leave just like that. If only this school is not far from my house i think i can stay till my bond finish ... but too bad lah.. later shift house worst. today i mnage to reach here at 8am... i wonder why... i went out at the same time but i reach here quite early... should be the bus 242 is fast today... gonna miss the student i teach especially 1A3 they are a noisy brat but at least i don't have to shout at them for them to do their work... Gosh... i hope later they will post me somewhere nearer... today was tiring , in the morning can't wake up but pull myself up. then apply some powder then go out not make up like usual coz i am too sleepy later i put blusher as lipstick hahah so just use powder and lipgloss and then go out to school. then at night later i have class, wah so tiring but what to do i like... well just waiting for the time to pass by then 5.30 i pack my back and leave to go to middle road for my class. Shit today got presentation... See lah never come presentation. i even forget what i did for my project so how to present... die lah i scared fail the module then cannot get the diploma then waste my precious time taking up all the module... well gonna stop here lah wanna pack my stuff so maybe blog again later or tomorow

2006-07-25T18:45:00.000+08:00

Best of luck to me... have to go to that school till friday.. anyway i kindda of attach to that school, i like the students andd i like the job , the only thing is that it's far. Well i just stay focus coz tomorrow have to teach new course that is foto journalism... and hope that i can make it sih... just have to relax anyway it's the same class taht i am going to teach 1a3.... then on thursday is powerpoint.. hope they do come to class. well it's true that if i have no schoolattached then i donn't feel the sense of belonging... well gonna continue later

2006-07-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

datuk k with his kids

2006-07-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

Malaysia's pop princess to marry after months of rumour

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Malaysia's leading pop star Siti Nurhaliza Taruddin ended months of intense speculation by announcing she will marry a wealthy businessman 20 years her senior after his recent divorce.

Siti, 27, finally revealed her feelings for Khalid Mohamad Jiwa at a packed press conference broadcast live on television.

The engagement and wedding parties are to be held simultaneously on August 21, with a lavish wedding reception planned on August 28 at the Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre, the city's newest exhibition space.

Her romance with the recently-divorced entrepreneur, who has four children, has been the subject of fevered speculation in Malaysia's tabloids for months.

"I would like to keep private some of the things I find attractive about Datuk Khalid, but one of the most endearing qualities is the love he has for his children, that impresses me," said Siti.

Dressed in a modest yellow and orange ethnic Malay floor-length outfit, she was flanked by her fiance who sported a matching yellow shirt.

"I think Siti is a very special person, in many ways," said Khalid, when asked about his feelings for the fresh-faced star.

A national icon in Malaysia, Siti has released about a dozen Malay-language albums which mainly feature love songs.

She also has legions of adoring fans in neighbouring Indonesia, Brunei and Singapore, and has won MTV music video awards for the past four years.

Siti Nurhaliza's wholesome, girl-next-door image is popular with the region's large Muslim population which frowns on sexy foreign artists.

In May, she caused a sensation in conservative Malaysia by declaring she was in love and "enjoying every minute of it", although at the time she brushed aside reports connecting her with Khalid, whose divorce was finalised earlier this month.

On Monday she dismissed questions over the age gap with 47-year-old Khalid.

"For me the age difference is not an issue ... it is all in the hands of God. Our relationship, meeting, life and death is all in the hands of God," she said.

An Article of siti still denying the truth on june 24....

Datuk K and family visit home of pop icon Siti Nurhaliza

KUALA LIPIS: A visit to the family home of pop darling Siti Nurhaliza by businessman Datuk Khalid Muhammad Jewa along with his mother and sister has fuelled more speculation on the “impending marriage.”

It was not immediately known what the purpose of the visit was but speculation was rife that Khalid was there to merisik, which is a customary visit by a groom aspirant to seek the parents' consent for an engagement with their daughter.

An entourage in three cars was said to have entered the singer's house at Taman Permata in Sungai Kerpan, near here, at about 2pm, just after Friday prayers yesterday.

Although Datuk K, as he is popularly referred to by the media, was not spotted, a black Mercedes-Benz bearing the number plate WMR 38, purportedly his, was seen.

A family friend later told newsmen that Khalid was inside the house but refuted suggestions that the visit was related to an engagement. He said it was purely a social visit. The man also said Siti was not at home.

FUELLING SPECULATION: Several cars including a black Mercedes-Benz said to be Datuk K’s were seen parked in front of Siti’s house in Taman Permata in Sungai Kerpan, near Kuala Lipis, after Friday prayers yesterday.
Reporters, who got wind of the visit, rushed to the house and tried to interview family members and relatives but were turned away.

The family friend, who claimed to be a policeman, told reporters waiting outside the house compound to leave.

He said the family had made the request as they did not want to be disturbed.

However, a close source revealed that Khalid was there to discuss the wedding “date” with Siti's parents.

It is learnt that Khalid, his mother and sister had lunch at the house and that Siti's parents were more than happy to receive the guests.

It was said that one of Siti's hesitations in revealing her beau was due to her family's unhappiness over her choice.

Numerous attempts to contact Siti, her brother Ayie and sister-in-law Rozie were unsuccessful.

When contacted through SMS and asked whether he was engaged to Siti, Khalid replied: “Sorry, I have no comment. There is no engagement. Thanks.”

On Thursday, Khalid said he would make an announcement next month but remained evasive when asked whether he was “the one” in Siti's life.

Siti, in an interview recently, had also denied speculation that she would be getting married on Aug 8 and refused to entertain questions on Khalid.

Rumours about Siti's “secret” relationship started last year but speculation about her relationship with Khalid became stronger when she admitted to the press in March that she was in love.

But the million-dollar question remains: Is Datuk K really the man in Siti's heart?

2006-07-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

The extrac below is from Hyrul i agree what he says but i am really deeply depressed with her. How can she say that she will never lie to media or fans but aT THE same time she lied about the relationship that she had.. isn't love a wonderful thing that should be shared with people that you treasure. doesn't she treasure her fans... and the thing is when she is in a relation ship with that datuk k he has not divorce with his wif it's only after months that they divorce.the thing is she has been doing business with that datuk... You know the tea that she is endorsed with the Ctea is a bisness with datuk k.... i am really... sad with her.... Well read on....

Why is LOVE so blind?

I'm devastated. I broke down into tears.

Enough of my own despair. Mending the broken heart.

Now comes another BLAST.

Siti Nurhaliza is officially engaged to Datuk Khalid Jiwa as of TODAY.

Thanks to the live press conference on TV3, and updates from people who knows dat i'm an avid follower. It felt like a burning spear dashed through my heart.

How could her dad give blessings to this stupidity? I call this Stupidity.

Am i a fool for honouring ur charisma, hardwerk and always sticking with the meaningful words and advices dat comes from u? Am i a fool now for getting a load of disappointment from ur confession for being in love with that old man - who just divorced his first wife. And already have his own kids..who could just be so overjoyed by now dat they're having the 2nd Top Asian Artist as their new mother. Or they could be full of frustration towards you for wrecking their happiness with their own natural mother.

Millions out there were dying to hear your confession. All had the same hope. No one wished for an innocent, sweet but succesful lady to marry an old divorcee. Unfortunately, we had to swallow our own heart. My hands are still trembling. My heart is still praying.

There's nothing we can do, besides just waiting for the big day to arrive. Israk Mihraj, a memorable day in the Islamic calendar. This wedding doesnt bring the same significance to me thou. Or to the rest of the ardent followers. We are terribly bitter over this.

I can expect the same comments from u guys. Jodoh pertemuan ditangan Tuhan. Tetapi bukankah kita yang mengusahakannya? Segala perancangan perlu dilakukan dengan pemikiran yang waras, demi kebaikan diri sendiri juga orang sekeliling. Soal hati dan perasaan memang tidak boleh dimasuk campur. Namun, ia juga tidak boleh diambil endah, terutama sekali jikalau ada perancangan untuk bersatu, kerana ia adalah perjanjian sehingga hujung nyawa. Mungkin sebagai seorang pengikut, saya tetap harus merestui pilihan hatinya. Walau sebak didada dan keras hati untuk menerima, saya percaya bahawa ada hikmah disebaliknya. Mengapa saya begitu kecewa? Kerana saya mahukan yang terbaik untuknya. Naluri saya mengatakan bahawa pilihan hatinya tidak menjaminkan kebahagiaan seumur hidup, dan itu membuahkan kerisauan di hati jutaan peminatnya.

Adakah setiap penyanyi, pelakon ataupun penyampai berita di negara jiran harus menikahi seorang datuk ataupun daripada kerabat diraja? Pelik tapi benar. Dimanakah erti kesederhanaan dan cukup dari segi ilmu keagamaan, yang mereka selalu ucapkan kala disoal tentang ciri-ciri lelaki idaman. Dimana?

I hope u guys will try to understand wat i've written here, before i get ur comments to ask me to start accepting the fact. This is the real soulconfession. I'm disheartened dat she took the easiest way out. Whatever it is, i will still be behind her. For the years i've stick with her inspirational words, and her endless enthusiasm to reach her goals. I'm still amazed with the person herself. I'm just appalled with this One decision she had made. I'm worried if this could tarnish her reputation as the youngest living legend in our malay music industry.

Hard to give the blessings. But she's still my idol, no matter what.

The announcement is still so surreal....pray dat she knows wat she's doing...

sob.

This article is found in the net

Siti Nurhaliza to marry Datuk K on Aug 21

KUALA LUMPUR: Pop star Siti Nurhaliza will wed businessman Datuk Khalid Mohamed Jiwa on Aug 21.

The engagement and akad nikah ceremony will be held at Masjid Wilayah Persekutuan, while wedding receptions are scheduled for Aug 28 at the Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre (KLCC) and Sep 3 in Kuala Lipis, Pahang.

Siti's parents' 38th wedding anniversary also falls on Aug 21, Siti revealed at the press conference to announce the wedding.

LOVING COUPLE: Datuk Khalid Jiwa and Siti Nurhaliza announced their big day much to everyone's surprise. The wedding date is set on Aug 21 while the bersanding is on Aug 28 at the Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre.
The couple have commissioned Datuk Raja Shah Rezza from Nusantara Gems as wedding planner, with the reception at the KLCC to feature a "garden wedding" concept.

Fashion designers Radzuan Radziwill, Michael Ong, Khoon Hooi, Natrah Hisham and Anana Avanti have been engaged to design the wedding costumes, which will feature traditional songket and tekat.

Makeup artistes Nurul Shukur and Mia have also been engaged for the events.

2006-07-20T13:08:00.000+08:00

Well what i have done for the last 3 days as a trainer.. to my opinion trainer job is only to train people but now i have so many things to do except training and what's more my training section is only 3 times a week on tuesday wednesday and thursday. and the time is 2.30 till 4.30 and the rest of the time is the dirty jobs lah... open lab for teacher lah ... if you wanna know somemore you just read my reflection report below lah...

REFLECTION REPORT (daily)

School: Juying Secondary School
Role: IT Trainer
Time: 11.00am-6.00pm
Date: 17th July 2006

Context of experience:

Today was the first day in Juying Secondary. When I reach the school I was told to report to the HOD of IT, Miss Belinda so I spent 20 minutes just to look for her coz I got lost in between the blocks. When I found her she told me to look for TA Sue which is in the Lab where I should be. So I spend another 20 minutes finding the block . When I mange to find the room the TA was not there so I waited for another 30 minutes for her to come back and open up the room for me. By the time I switch on the computer to check my email for the handover report it was already 12pm. After going through the handover report I was told to do the immediate and outstanding pending task. So I started doing the video editing first because that is the most familiar. Then I browse through the computer and found they are using Ulead Video Studio 8. Since I am not familiar with that software I took my time to explore the software first then I did the video editing. After finished editing I exported it out to avi format. Then I surf the net and enter their school portal to find out more about the school. The school has a forum and the students and teacher are able to communicate actively. The forum is for them to share idead encouragement or give feedbacks.

School: Juying Secondary School
Role: IT Trainer
Time: 9.00am-6.00pm
Date: 18th July 2006

Context of experience:

Today the HOD come to meet me and brief me about what I must do (daily task).
So today I asked the TA to teach me how to install SDRAM. I manage to finish almost all computers but I was stopped because there is class coming in to have lesson. Then I start the daily task that is opening the lab at the specific time so that the teachers can come in for lesson and after the lesson ends I have to lock up the room or prepare the room for the next class. The 2nd daily task is to monitor their portal forum so as to make sure that there are no vulgarities or any negativity that should not be there. If there is I am suppose to print 2 copies, 1 is for my reference and the other one is to the HOD., and then delete the entry. In the evening I have a class (sec 1a3) teaching Microsoft word. As this is the first time I am teaching am very nervous and worried that if the class could not understand the lesson. At the end of the lesson everything was going fine and smooth but only 90% of the class pass up their project because they forgot to save their project and just shut down their work. After the class dismiss I check that all the computer is shut off and lock up the room. Then I went to my desk to monitor the portal again and also check tomorrow schedule. Lastly I find sources in the internet for tomorrow class .

School: Juying Secondary School
Role: IT Trainer
Time: 9.00am-6.00pm
Date: 19th July 2006

Context of experience:

As soon as I reach the school and reach my desk I open up my email to check whether
There is any email from ACP then I check the school portal and check the schedule for today. Open up labs for teachers to use on time and lock it afterwards.

Then there is a teacher whom came in and asks me about video cam and asks me to fix it in her class. So I went to her class and set the camera up and taught her the simple function of the video cam and how to rec, stop and zooming in and out.. Then I went for lunch.

After lunch I prepare notes for my next class. While preparing one of the teacher told me to look after his class for awhile. So I monitor them for 30minutes and when the teacher came back I went back to my room and finish up the notes that I am preparing and go for printing.

After the lesson I go back to my desk and prepare for tomorrow lesson. Then a student came in to my room and asks me whether I could help her in her project so I go help her and after finishing I went up and finish up the notes.

REFLECTION REPORT

School: Juying Secondary School
Role: IT Trainer
Class: 1A3
Time: 2.30pm till 4.30pm
Date: 18th July 2006

Context of experience:

The lesson was delayed due to the Students whom forgot their password so they can’t enter to the computer system. So I have to organize them to share computer but still do individual work. Firstly they do not want to cooperate so I told them if they do not hand in their project by the end of the lesson the class will be extended till 5.30pm.

When Microsoft Word document have open I realize that they do not have any problem with the software so after an 30 minutes introduction to the course and what the software uses the student requested me to show sample of what the should do. So I teach them step by step how to open up documents and inserting text. What I realize is that most of them knows how to use Microsoft word just after a few minutes of briefing. The class was very noisy and the students keep disturbing one another but in the end most of them manage to finish up their assignment. What surprise me most is that almost 80% of the students do not know how to save their project after they have finish up their assignments. Some of the students forget to save their project and just shut down the computer. So they end up not submitting their work, so I told them that they have to hand in their assignment on their next class with me.

Well i have not yet updated today and tomorow happenings if i have time i will update it.. anyway even my blog info i have not edited... no time lah anyway... wish me luck for today lesson hope not like yesterday lah.... yesterday all the student never come... hope today the student come..... tomorrow last day here so happy no need to wake up so early and rush down to here.....

2006-07-17T15:00:00.000+08:00

today is the first day i become the it trainer. Well not the trainer firstly i was suppose to come for training at acp then kelvin say that i have to replace someone at juying sec. so i went all the way nervouse like mad but when i reach the school i have to go around the school just to find the computer lab after i found the lab i need to wait for someone called sue coz she has the key. waited for like 40 minites then she turn up and the i have to open my email just like what kelvin told me and there a list of what i should do...

here is the list..
HANDING OVER REPORT

Name: Yasmin Yusof
School: Juying Secondary School
Date: 17 July 2006

1. Signing In & Out Register File in General Office

Upon reaching the school, introduce yourself to general office staffs that you are the IT Trainer that will relief me for today. You are required to “sign in” the register file upon reporting to school. The file is in black color with my name on the front page.

2. Lab Key Drawing Procedures

Please proceed to the general office and look for Ms Dilla, Ms Valerie or Ms Sundri to request for Lab A(78), Lab D(35) and Lab E(77) keys. Ensure that the keys are duly signed out in the key register book.

3. Location of Trainer Table
My desk is situated in Computer Lab A. It is the second floor of the Enterprise block.
Once you come up the stairs, the door is directly in front of you. Use key 78 to unlock the door. There’s another room inside, that’s the TA room. My table is the table that is outside the TA’s room.

Lab D & E is on the first floor of the Enterprise block. On the left is Lab D, on the right is Lab E.

4. Daily Tasks
• Teachers might want to borrow or return digital cameras or digital video camera. The file in purple is the file to record down the “sign in” and “sign out” of the borrowing. Fill up accordingly. Please fill in the serial number.

• To monitor the usage of school portal. To monitor the Forum. To monitor the Booking Facilities.
• Expected to open up Lab D & E for the teachers according to the time booked and to lock up after that particular class.
• To check the broadcasting laptop to make sure that the broadcasting went smooth. The laptop is situated in the Vice-Principle room.

5. Upcoming Tasks

• To check with Mrs Jessie on how she want the printer in the library to be place.

6. Immediate Tasks

• Install SDRAM into Lad D computers.
• To test out the VCN with the T.A. Ensure that the teachers can only see students within the class.

7. Outstanding Pending Tasks

• Edit the staff retreat video clip. The video clip is in the desktop. I named it “ staff retreat”
• Upload the staff retreat photo in the school portal. It is under the “Photo Gallery”. The photos are in the computer th
• at situated in the Teacher’s staff room under “retreat 2006”.

8. Key Personnel / Positions

Mrs Belinda Chan – HOD IT / Teaches Maths & CPA
HP: 92733827

Su Su Aye – TA
HP: 96870203

9. Miscellaneous
Test out the VCN with TA. All my work is in the Acer Veritron.

10. Important Points to Take Note.
• Never lend your key to any other teachers for them to open any of the labs.
• Never leave the lab unlock while unattended.
• Never leave the students alone in the lab.
• Remember to off air-con and light when not in use.
• Should you have any enquires, you can contact me at 98197259.

And know what i can only do 1 thing of all the list that is editing their videos. and now i have finish editing i don't know what to do... even the ta is not here. she gave me the key and told me that she won't be in this room so i have to hold the key.. well i am fine with it but now i feel like i am here not doing nothing which is wrong and if only i could do all of it.. but i don't think so... coz i don't even know how to istall a SDRAM.. i don't even know what it is... Well here i am in a very cold computer lab with noisy boys outside playing catching and me nothing else to do... i feel like i am not fit to do this job, anyway i have not even attend any course yet and i don't feel like a trainer at all but an office worker. coz here i am sitting here just blogging away... And i can't go home now coz i am suppose to stay here till 6pm haizz.... 3 more hours to go with nothing to do... And just now there is a teacher come in and ask for the digital camera charger and i don't even know where they put the charger so i call sue, the girl whom i waited for 40 minues, and she never pick up the call and the teacher ask for my name and i think i am in a deep shit.. but really i went around the room but i can't seems to find any charger at all well what should i do so i told the teacher i am so sorry and he just say it's ok i'll sms sue... well i think i am in a deep shit... but for me how can they just put me in a school and don't tell me what to do and expect me to know what to do... i am suppose to train people not sitting bumming around. and i have not eaten any lunch coz i don't know what time to go and eat and where is the canteen and so on... i guess this is the life of the replacement trainer... welll looks like i am stuck here with nothing to do... wish me luck....

2006-06-27T22:55:00.000+08:00

A full picture well half of it... only the one that i like lah

2006-06-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

this few weeks have been so hectic that sometimes i felt like i can't breathe hehe.. well early this month one of my aunty got engage then my other aunty got married and then i started working after that hectic week.. i feel like i have no rest at all... so now i can breathe a bit easier, thanks god school is on hold or else i will feel like a walking zombie.. well work was fine it's kind of the same thing i did at guardian just that not that many paper work. alot of new staff sih since i have came in i thing around7 or 8 people like that and all of them are full time staff but i was wondering for what do they need so many new staff right.. anyway kindda miss him and mairah... mairah is the newest member of my family.. i miss school too... hope the new teacher is better then that guna man... I feel like change my skin too but see if i have the time to do it.. i also want to do my own profille online.. a profile of all the stuff that i've created or fotos that i have captured n edited.. but i don't know how... and for now i don't have time... i miss my ite friends too.. miss the fun and laughter .... i feel like i wanted to do so much stuff but i don't think i have the time to do it... here's a list ~ 1. Collect at least 10 k in 4 years, 2. Find an office job. 3. Finish my diploma asap 4. Get a new phone with a working infrared 5. Buy a real good make up set 6. Buy a DVD/VCD/CD/FM player 7. Buy a decent MP3 8. Save at least 2k by next year 9. Lose at least 2 0r 3kg 10. Have my own profile of work done online... So many stuff but i think i can do at least 2 of above if i put my mind on it..Well going to malacca next week for short trip, my grandma insist me to follow... what do u think i can buy for di... Well that's all for now, have to sleep coz working tomorrow and it's last day coz next day i off... so looking forward for a nice sleep till afternoon hehe.. well good thing next month i got 2 days off .... ok lah good day... or should i say good night...

2006-06-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

know what.. coming to lesson is so dragging everytime coz the stupid lecturer, i don't even know if he can teach, he talks about respecting him as a teacher but then his teaching totally sucks man.. i think this module is the worse man i never learn anything at all.. how to do the project at all sih.. this totally sucks man.. got to go lah guna's here...

2006-06-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

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like the picture very much.. even though she have so much problem and i know physically and mentally tired but she still look so good... it lah baru di katakan real actress..

2006-06-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6509/1384/1600/teaser_erra.jpg

like the picture very much.. even though she have so much problem and i know physically and mentally tired but she still look so good... it lah baru di katakan real actress..

2006-05-19T03:48:00.000+08:00

I did my best
But I guess my best wasn't good enough
Cause here we are
Back where we were before
Seems nothin' ever changes
We're back to being strangers
Wondering if we ought to stay
Or head on out the door

Just once...

Can't we figure out what we keep doin' wrong
Why we never last for very long
What are we doin' wrong

Just once...

Can't we find a way to finally make it right
To make the magic last for more than just one night
If we could just get to it
I know we could break through it
(Hmm hmmmm)

I gave my all
But I think my all may have been too much
Cause Lord knows we're not gettin' anywhere
Seems we're always blowin'
Whatever we've got goin'
And it seems at times with all we've got
We haven't got a prayer

Just once...

Can't we figure out what we keep doin' wrong
Why the good times never last for long
Where are we goin' wrong

Just once...

Can't we find a way to finally make it right
To make the magic last for more than just one night
I know we could break through it
If we could just get to it

(Bridge)
Just once
I want to understand.....
Why it always comes back to goodbye
Why
Can't we get ourselves in hand
And admit to one another
We're no good without each other
Take the best and make it better
Find a way to stay together

Just once.....

Can't we find a way to finally make it right (Whoa)
Make the magic last for more than just one night
I know we could break through it
If we could just get to it

Just Once.....

Whoa oh, we can get to it

Just Once.....

2006-05-17T01:12:00.000+08:00

2006-05-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

here i am blogging again in class coz i don't really understand what that matt is saying... maybe iam not gifted in this maya.. i totally sucks in maya man.. can't understand what to do and i don't even know what to do for my project man... and know what i only have 2 more weeks before the presentation sih... now i am freaking out so much coz i can't even do a simple eye ball .. i don't even remember how to do it sih.. what should i do??? find someone whom is expert in maya and help me or coach me to do my project but who sih.... know what i don't think i can pass this module at all... it's very stressing coz i don't know where to start. k lah blog again later...

2006-05-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

Today was a fantastic day. I hope that it will last 4eva. I can't wait to be with him. At last i heard that that mat saleh is married i am so hapi. It's all crap. Fortune telling it's all crap so d?n waste m0ney on them

2006-05-09T18:36:00.000+08:00

fed up3x nak tahu kenapa tak... my computer hang without me saving my project and the auto save pulak don't have the project that i have just done.. alamak peh binggit now i have to do all over again sih.. padan muka kan... well i think i can finish doing my video editing project lah i think lah if it does not crash again sih... very the irritating sih.. hope nadia come today... coz i am so bored sitting alone sih... well let hope she do come lah... haiz k got to start doing my project again....

2006-05-08T12:48:00.000+08:00

some photos....

2006-05-04T20:39:00.000+08:00

let me tell you something... maya sucks... hahaha maya as in a 3d animation software not a person... i simply can't do anything... and i suck at it... and it's making me frustrated... i need a personal coach.. and i need it fast so as to assist me in my upcoming project... which i know i am going to fail... and i am feeling very frustrated rite now... feel like shouting out loud that i can't do it.. i don't know bout my other classmates but maya is really annoying man... ok at last matt help me and i manage to finish it up.... yeah... but it is only the beginning lah coz when it gets to the complecated stuff i will get really lost till i give up and start doing other stuff... well i am in the good mood hehehe.. this is frustrating the stress level is really high right now... ok now he is talking about salary... well my friend say that she saw him with a chinese girl and i am so happy... my reading will not be true yeah.... i am so happy sih... well she say they act as if dorang matair and i am so happy... that means the reading is wrong and i am glad so glad too happy without any words hahah .... well update again k...

2006-04-25T06:34:00.000+08:00

hi everyone... well finish editing my blog design... it was darm difficult for a beginner like me sih... i don't know where shouls go where but just tried one by one and wa lah.... done.. and quite happy with the design lah... took 8hours man... eventually i can't sleep so i think why not design my own blog... anyway i still have not get the feeling right, still feel not like me... try later lah when i can spent another 8hours of my nap time hehe anyway kindda miss my dad... and i mean MR MAZLAN my real dad... that's why if u see the pictures.. his picture is the biggest in there.. anyway that is the only picture i have of him... i miss him so much... and kind of thinking back, when i get married i want him to be my wali and not someone else but if can't find him maybe i search like mad and still cannot find then give up lah... why don't he contact me... i hope he contact me before i shift house... i nak pindah rumah sih... and kalau lepas pinda then he try to contact me here nampaknye sampai tak tahu bila then he can meet me sih.. i wonder if he still remember me sih... been a long time i never meet him i think 1 or 2 years gitu... oki understand he have a new family but don't he miss me at all k lah got to go... take care....

2006-04-15T03:20:00.000+08:00

hello world... so many stuff happen behind my back...well now in the middle of project need to present tomorrow but i have not completed the project.. really die man if i can't finish it by tomorrow b4 going for the presentation... well i am scared to present tommorow because jabez gonna judge us... well he is very fussy and too professional and he wants all our project too be professional.. what must i do man.. can i finish my project sih... i am sleepy sih today maybe i am tired sih... but can't sleep coz need to finish the project.. gosh only if someone could help me sih.. but... noone lah.. everyone sleeping now coz it's already 3.25am yup and i am stil awake . well today went to ikea just to see2 stuff ayo waste time man then go to my bro house.. my god my niece was so chubby man.. no pics to show lah... my cam batt weak lah... well stopping here lah tomorrow i hope the presentation will go well and hope di will treat me to long john sih.. but don't think so coz no money lah... hehe i'm really craving for long john.... bye... world

2006-04-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

hi world i am back.. still in class lah.. just don't know what to do so here i am blogging again... well need to talk to someone but don't really know who lah so here i am talking to you world... i don't know what i going on today i sleep nsleep and sleep and here i am feeling so letargic.. blam myself.. well this past few days i have no appetite to eat... if i eat i felt like trowing up then i always have this pain at the lower part of my stomach... it's kindda weird coz sometimes when i don't eat also i feel like trowing up... can't be pregnant coz i never have any intercourse at all... it's weird... why???? stress??? don't think so... maybe my body have gone crazy coz it's not at the correct point of time hehe nvm me i also don't understand what i am talking... k lah have to go home.. bye... world

2006-04-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

today kind of ok2 but know what my menses sudently come and it's kindda freaky coz it's not suppose to come this early coz the medicine have not yet finish.. yup i am on medication.. as soon as the medicine finish after afew days then my menses will coe but i am not evn halfway through my medication.. is it because of stress?? well blogging letter, i mean later..

2006-04-07T05:23:00.000+08:00

i've writen a complaint letter to kfc... first time officially complaining about anything...
so read on...
it was a nice day to start with.. a trip to cinema to watch ice age 2 and then suddently i was craving for kfc chicken.. so i made a decision to go there after the show.. So as soon as the show ended i rushed to the basement to eat your delicious chicken.. so i ordered a 2 piece meal chicken but the crew told me that all the chicken have finish and would i like burgers.. i was so shocked because it was only 9.15pm and the chicken that i have been craving had finish and the crew don't even bother to suggest any other options or cooked some more chickens coz what do you have to lose and never say sorry but say only got burger left... so then i ordered zinger meal.. and the crew say that the whipped potatoes have finished can change to french fries.. i was angry at that moment but well i am hungry so i just say yes. and the crew told me that he will sent my burger and fries soon. so i find a seat and eat the coleslaw and i was really mad this time because the coleslaw was sour.. i really wanted to complaint so looking around to find the manager but to my dismay there is none only the crews are around.. is this allowed anyway? No manager to be around. then at around 10 mins later the same crew sent me my burger and fries... so i eat the burger but when i eat the fries... oh my god the fries is too salty... all my appetite has disappear... so i just walk out of the store without finishing my meal..
So firstly i wanna ask why is the store have no more fried chicken at 9.15pm coz at that time there is still customer ordering and we have no choice to choose but burgers??
Secondly, why is the coleslaw sour?? are they allowed to served bad coleslaw??
thirdly, so far in my life as a customer of kfc, i've never tasted such salty fries..
I hope you could do something about this because that will be the last time i will be eating at that store...
Even the crew have that i-don't-care face.. They don't even smile and they way they talk is in 'whatever' tone...
i am so disappointed with that store.. The store that i have been mentioning is at plaza singapure basement store. And i was in the store from 9.15 - 9.30pm on 6th april 2006.
I hope this incident will never happen again.. I am so disappointed...

Very disappointed customer
hirmah mazlan

2006-04-05T05:37:00.000+08:00

taufik........taufik.........taufik........
hate him i don't care...
just like ricky sang..." i don't care i just wanna be ures.." hehehehe but i can't be his;P

2006-04-05T05:20:00.000+08:00

hi world... first of all i wanna shout taufiKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!! hehe yup i do confess i like him hehe jgn bilang faizal, i always deny it to him coz dia jelouse.. hehe anyway buat ape sih dia nak jelouse it's not as if i could even talk to taufik, rasa2 nye i be too toungue tied really i will only watch him from far coz i don't wanna be those fans whom shout and shout.. so not me sih... only meet him well from far lah at may day concert.. gosh so stunning.. yah lah old story but after that performance i totally fall for him.. he so good got very good showmanship... really i am not those pompan yg fanatic... well got little bit lah but i won't go chasing him gi tempat keje dia ke or what ever i am what they call secretadmirer from far.. of course i have wishes to go upclose and personal with him like other fan well quite that desprates but won't go to the extend of doing crazy stuff lah... i'm shy girl so what i will do if kat concert dia i will line up for autograph but slalu tak dapat lah coz people will cut que and then sampai masa sorry guys taufik got to go... haizzz then kalau ambik gambar dia pun dari jauh coz i can't get close him and i know i can't.. i rasa kalauijalan tepi taufik he won't even notice me... coz not those minarep atau those highly active-noisy mina tudung.... usually i am like a wall paper... people don't even remember me being there...haiz.. sian eh.. hehe k lah later wanna suft for fik pictures again but i guess got to sleep oh ya, quite tired coz i play catchin with a very big and flying crocroach.. thanks got my mum kill it or else i cry man.. tak kan tido pun... haiz... i'm about to cry when it flew toward me nasib ade bolster to hit it to my bedboard and i quickly run to my mum room and wake her from sleep... hehe macam budak2 eh hehe laugh lah but really if ure in my place ure sure freak out coz the crock look like wanna attack me sih tadi hehe k lah god nite world.... nyte di and nyte taufik....

2006-04-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

hi world again..
i bored plain bored and i can't concentrate on my school lectures.. ieverything never gets in my head. well i don't know whay. Fir this few weeks i have been having this disturbing dream and it's kind freaking me out alot.. it's that ghost is coming after me lah ghost waiting for me outside my house lah and all that freaking stuff... maybe because of my inner consience that i have always delay my prayer time and sometimes i even did not pray maybe it's away for god to punish me for all my sins that i have done.. by giving me nightmare and not letting me sleep at night... well maybe or is it really true. i can sometimes feel that i am still shaking when i wake up and the scare that ii have stil linger around me.. what happen did i accidently kick an offering or walk on it or what. what mistakes did i do??? I hopwe so muchn that the nightmare will stop coz it's kindda freaking me out.. well in school right now gonna update when i reach home later k.. c u later world....

2006-04-04T02:20:00.000+08:00

you & me- life house

What day is it
and in what month,
this clock never seemed so alive...
I can't keep up,
and I can't back down,
I've been losing so much time.

'Cause it's you and me,
and all other people with nothing to do, nothing to lose.
And it's you and me,
and all other people.
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you...

Of all other things,
I just want to say that you're still coming all right.
I'm tripping on words,
You've got my head spinning and I don't know where to go from here.

'Cause it's you and me,
and all other people with nothing to do, nothing to prove.
And it's you and me,
and all other people.
And I don't know why,

I can't keep my eyes off of you...

There's something about you now,
that I can't quite figure out.
Everything she does is beautiful,
And everything she does is right.

'Cause it's you and me,
and all other people with nothing to do, nothing to lose.
And it's you and me,
and all other people.
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me,
and all other people with nothing to do, nothing to prove.
And it's you and me,
and all other people.
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you...

What day is it
and in what month,
this clock never seemed so alive...

2006-04-04T02:01:00.000+08:00

latest pics of my bro family trip to my house

2006-04-04T01:33:00.000+08:00

hi world... kidda sick today... got a very terrible headache... well went to visit my cousin and her baby well was kindda shocked coz they don't know how to handle baby and i really mean handle as in how to carry the baby... how to chage the diapers... how to wash the kid up ... what type of lotion to use or what infant formular... well not to boast but i know almost everything even though i don't have baby... when i ask the father wether they have drapolene, in case u too don't know it's a anti-nappy rash cream, and he was so blur... i mean they have 0% knowledge of a baby and i tot that everyone knows how to handle baby. they don't even know how to carry baby, even the father is scared to carry his own son but i just carry his son and put it in his arms... god... now i know there is such people sih... well i guess if u wanna have baby go for class or what or u will .... i don't know what to say sih... well maybe i am blessed with motherly characyer and knowledge or what... coz i can almost handle all baby.. maybe i shoukd consider becomming a nanny or child care teacher... coz i have passion for them.. god... my head is hurting sih... can't even lie down coz my head hurts so much... feel like knocking my head to the wall. And know what my grandma is smell of petai god my head hurts more when she is around me... and she has a very bad habit of not bathing and i can't stand it and know what i am sleeping in the same room as her... well kindda suffering lah... well she is not that terrible lah at first but after hajj she is getting worst sih... and sometimes i can't stand it... i even told her to get bathed often and ask her to use deodorant and perfumed poeder but she never listen to me.. and when she washed our clothes, anyway we told her not to do so, she never put any soap or soflan or whatever so after washing the clothes stinks and we don't have the heart to complaint sih and when she cooked she just anyhow cook sometimes yesterday keftovers she will mix the dishes together... and now her recent habit is to eat jering, well it's kindda like petai but much more smelly, and the whole house will smell of it and i kindda hate the smell and i am having a headache and the smell makes my head worse. and almost every dish she cooked or my mum cooked she will put jering in it.. she knows i don't eat it and i am a picky eater can't she just cook what she wants to eat and respect what others don't eat... god... i am not suppose to talk about others(mengumpat lah) but i can't take it sih... the smell hahahaha well maybe u think i am joking lah but only if ure in my shoe then u know and later this year i am going to shift and she also lah but what will happen sih to the new house... i wanna her to just sit down and rest but she will always do something and make a mess in the house, never take a bath... sometimes i can't take the smell sih... haiz.... nasib agaknye eh.... k lah world gonna sign out and leave u some pictures of my cousins baby...

2006-04-02T00:18:00.000+08:00

hi world... NIce pic rite very adorable rite hehehe k lah yesterday can't post her picture so i promise u this one will lah..

2006-04-01T02:00:00.000+08:00

well wanna post umairah pictures.. tink the previouse one disappear just like that... but i don't think so i can coz there is a bit of problem well i gonna post again k bye world and anyway hapi april fool

2006-03-31T05:10:00.000+08:00

and know what i forget to ask his father what is his name hehe...

2006-03-31T04:32:00.000+08:00

hi world.... well not in the right mood now.... well to let u guess my mood, i am listening to ajai & krisdayanti hati ini telah dilukai... nah not in fight or what but i just felt like that... maybe it's the time of the month.. i felt bit of useless too and frustrated with myself coz i can't figure out the way for my project and after trying and i like the design the stupid software just close ny itself and know what i've not save yet and everything gone... gosh.... felt terrible after that and this sog came up and it stick to me till now.. kindda bored coz noone to chat to.. k just now chat wif one of my new classmate and he's kind of friendly too.. well the first time i met him, i had a small guilty crush lah but now it's over coz i heard he's married and really he is married... GOD where has all the cute guys go.... all seems to be either attached or married hahah just joking!!!! well chat up with him and he send me his wife and son photos... well his son fotos were darm cute man... can't resist kids i guess.. maybe i should really consider being a childcare teacher... i really can't resist small kids and i could fall in love with them within minutes... hehe maybe that motherly instinct is really growing in me... well eventually i really though he is not married coz he looks young.. he has been married tink 4 4 years and the son now is 2 yrs 6 months and is really cute like his father hehe... well if the father.. * you know who u are if u happen to read this hehe... well gonna show you his son foto k very adorable...
aniway the family photo he show mw is like a deja vu seen it before sih... k lah see u soon world....
P/s: dear dad don't get angry k if i posted ure son photo coz he is too cute lah... ;P

2006-03-29T04:26:00.000+08:00

Biarlah Rahsia

Siti Nurhaliza - Biarlah Rahsia

Lagu: Melly Goeslow

Lirik: Siti Nurhaliza

Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika

berada di tempat ku

membayangkan pahit manis

berlakutiada siapa yang tahu

mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan

berdepan dengan kata menyesatkan

tak kan ku

tiada pertimbangan

**keheningan malam membalutkan

kepayahan jiwa meluahkan

andai kau jujur memahami

tiadaku menjauhi

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang

menambahkan berat yang memandang

lantasku pendam ku putuskan

biarlah rahsia

semakin aku hitung dalam cinta

tiada kuasa mampu menghalangnya

hentikan kata-kata bertulangkan dusta

**keheningan malam membalutkan

kepayahan jiwa meluahkan

andai kau jujur memahami

tiada ku menjauhi

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang
menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantas ku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsia
oooooo

***dan kisah ku yang masih panjang
menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantas ku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsia

2006-03-29T04:25:00.000+08:00

Sabar
Orang yang sabar
Mulia kehidupannya
Ke mana pergi
Akan disegani
Rakan dan taulan
Tetap menyayangi

Biar cacian
Ataupun fitnah
Tak terhenti-henti
Menimpa diri
Harus tawakal
Penuh kesabaran

Insan yang sabar
Menempuh hidup
Akan diberkati Allah
Memang sudah
Menjadi Firman sabar itu IMAN

Hidup di dunia
Banyak ragamnya
Tabahkan hati
Sepanjng jalan
Orang yang sabar
Dirahmati Allah

"Suatu masa nanti.....Pasti kau temui.....Tabahkanlah hati.....Jangan lupakan Illahi.....Akan tiba, kebahagian.....Tak mungkin sendirian....."

extracted from khairul anuar's blog... *jgn marah eh bro if u happen to read this kan tak de copyright kan ;P

2006-03-29T04:03:00.001+08:00

hi world.. long time since i posted.. yah because i have a very seriouse eye infection last week can't see that well with only one eye to depend on.. well now it's good... well did not go to school again today... because wanna be with him... so we went to watch big momma house 2 it was kindda bored but there are some of the funny parts as well but not that much... then went to carrefour to do some shopping and after that he start babbling about marriage and responsiblities and all that stuff wich is not the right time too talk about coz i am plain bored today and just had a small disputes coz i met my ex and he is not too happy bout it... well not tat i don't wanna talk bout it it just that i am not ready yet to talk about it today and i know he is pretty upset anyway we hug and everything is ok.. i think coz i don't wanna things to go too bad... well kindda miss my ite peeps well maybe if oneday i could go out with them like always it will be kindda cool but for now only i and khairul keep in contact.. kindda miss the fun and laughter we had... well for now i thing i have only 2 friend that always contact me haiza and khairul and kindda my close friend right now.. well i do have other friends lah but we are not even close only sometimes discuss bout schools and talk bout schools stuff only.. well maybe that is why they say true friend are hard to come by.. well well now trying to find the right blogskin for me i want to do my own but i don't think i can coz i don't know hoe... well if i do have enought and exttra free time i could try well for now bye world may we meet again.....
p/s: taufik won the artist paling popular.... ;P

2006-03-29T04:03:00.000+08:00

tuesday
hi world....today went to watch 2 movies one is date movie and the other one is mine, yours & ours... well i prefer the second one... Don't quite like the date movie cause it's just the samme concept as scary movie(s) but know what i can't wait to see scary movie 4... it will be so cool.. i've seen the teasers kindda cool although the concept is the same but it's the acting that is cool... well the bad thing is that my eyes is kindda swollen so i went to see pharmacist and know what (it's a she) she told me that i have got eye infection... what the heck.... the main thing is my eye ball is not red or show any sign of redness but my eye lids are swollen and it hurts very much... so she recommend me this eye drop for infection , she call it antibiotics and told me that if by two days the pain does not subsides or got pus come out... ,i was shocked what does she means by pus... but i kept listening to her, she told me to go see a doctor to get a stronger antibiotic drop... so went to pay for the eye drop and went to toilet to apply it, i mean drop it and you know at first my eye balls gets itchy and then it get to terrible pain... maybe something inside is hurt (*luka lah) i don't know... then the pain will ease away then after about 10 min whenever i wanna close my eyes or blink the terrible pain will come back... i kind of confuse what infection could i got?? unless i am wearing contact lenses or what... i don't even wear glases for likes since last hari raya.... i plan to go to doctor on friday if the pain gets worse... and if i have the money lah... hope it will be fine tomorrow... coz i can't even pray coz when i pray my eyes will hurt worse especially when i *sujud gravity pulls i guess... i hope it will get better so tomorrow i can pray... Know what just now i saw fauzie laily but as per usual i don't chase him or whatsoever i just watch from far.. he is alone sih... shopping... then tommorow my bro family will come yeah2x
my eyes still hurs now and i feel like crying but i can;t coz if i cry the pain will get worse... so need to be strong... k lah take care me... and bye bye world....

2006-03-29T04:01:00.000+08:00

monday
yah right another case of insomia .... and know what my eyes on my left hurts i don't even know why.. there is no lumps or red dot well there is no physical evidence that it is hurt or in pain so if i go to doctor they will say nothing.. so i don't know my guy wanna ask me out tommorow and requested( kindly and very persuasively) that i could skip one lecture.. well i don't know.. well we will see about it... of course i don't feel like going also but gonna miss flash... but i think going to be fine coz i'm quite expert hehe in it well maybe lah coz eveleen lesson is so boring coz whatever she teaches i know just that sometimes i press the wrong key and it don't works and i give up... well i've started my video editing already but the problem is how am i going to transfer the file.. if only i have like 6gb thumbdrive or something like that... the file size is huge i think now is around 2gb... how eh... the battery want to finish already lah so gonna stop here first ... bye world....

2006-03-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

i am so feeling hopeless right now felt like i want to go home right now... i hate my self yup that's true i can't absorbe anything today just felt like i wanna take a long long walk non stop and don't go home... i wanna stay out without facing everyone at home... i wanna go out and never come in again... crap right.. yup i am crap my whole life is crap nothing usefull maybe i should never go out to the society.. mayb just walk away from everyone and don't meet anyone at all coz i feel that whenever i meet someone they will critise me and just makes me feel bad... well not cool to run away from people well if only i can.... god maybe i am not spending to much time with god that''s why everything turns from bad to worse.. yup that is true i hate me.. nothing turns right everything just got worse... well maybe to outside world i am just some lazy bum who depends on my parents for money.. well ure all wrong coz they don't even give me money sometimes i only get $2 but only after being nag at and sometimes i don't even get anything coz they say i always ask for money well usually i don't coz i wanna find a job coz i need cash well not from them coz i won't get it... maybe it's just my luck... well gotta go back to my lectures bye world

2006-03-20T19:23:00.000+08:00

todAY really sucks... know why coz i was accuse of stuff of i did not do and it really makes me feel bad... hate it.. can't sleep well last nite and now today being accuse of something that i did not do... i hate it... and i can't hate that person coz it's my mum.. k lah i suppose to post some photos but they can't read my thumbdrive and the computer at home need to be trown away.. k lah take care world....

2006-03-20T19:15:00.001+08:00

hi world... i am in my private world again... Only at this type of time i can be alone and be with myself again... Yah... No privacy so maybe it's time for me to get my own room... well maybe lah if i can... if cannot then well can't do anything coz if i don't than till i die than i can get my own room... correct what if i die then in the grave i will be alone what hehehe... well this tuesday my guy ask me out well eventually usually i can't coz i have a class but maybe can make it an exception coz he will be going to ns in maybe 2 more month and anyway i don't think i wanna go out on sat.... i don't know why but i felt quite uncomfortable going to wild wild wet with my condition now... ya lah i can't imagine myself being in the pool with long sleeve and cap to cover my head... well maybe if insist me to go then maybe i can consider.. well tomorow monday.... but i haven print my story board my project brief well i have not install macromedia stuff and my notebook can't connect to internet...
of coz kindda fed up coz spend the whole week trying to fix it... but i can't so i'll just try to find the crack for the software... maybe try the net if i still can't then maybe i'll ask around... have to find on my own first then ask around.... maybe search the net.. well can't sleep again maybe should aSk for sleeping pills. can't be like this all the time.... well wannA watch my left eyes can see ghost... and wanna try to sleep well if i can lah... well maybe if mama talk to me tomorrow can ask her for some money coz i really need cash.. i am really craving for good chocolate i bought malaysia chocolate it's taste so terrible... and wanna but pau .. may be i can go to school earlier so i can do some of video editing... well if i can.. well if i can lah.... k lah gd bye world c u soon....

2006-03-20T19:15:00.000+08:00

yeah... today is the day... at last i got to go to escape theme park.... first we went macdonals to have lunch then we went to escape....everything went so fine until i have to take a ride in the ship... ya you can go on and laugh at me ... i am so scared like mad that my body shook vigerousely that's right... shook like mad.. and i have to close my eyes through out the whole thing and i still have the cheek to say i wanna ride all the rides... shame on me... well yah i think right now that you already know i am afraid of heights... well so the next thing is i went to the haunted house well don't really enjoy it coz i can't see anything except for the electricuted man and kak pon hanging on the deiling and the rest is too bored coz i am concentrating so much so as not to fall down coz it's damn dark... then after that my headache came for a visit maybe because i shook too hard at the ship so i went for a relaxing superman ride... which i have i lie down on my stomach then the thing will spin around but not that HIGH so it's fine with me... you know what i find myself quite weird coz i am afraid of moving heights but not moving horror movie... weird rite... yup i really mean moving heights such as the pirates ships, rollercoaster... you know why i say that, coz when i am aboard i climb a mountain which is quite high and yup no phobia but just now i took the pirate ship i was freaking scared... god, so paiseh coz i was with my guy... and i told him i wanna take all the rides that is there... paiseh rite but.. then he just laugh it out and says that " next week we go wild wild wet k, then if the rides there is too high for you, we can just laze around at the pool k".. isn't he sweet, i guess if other guy will laugh his head off... gosh... my head still hurts so bad that i wonder when will it disappear...i swear never to take that ride again... maybe go to the kiddy rides... i don't mind being laugh at coz i really can't take it.... well here are some photos of what we took there....

2006-03-20T19:14:00.000+08:00

well got a life saver, lina coz she help me burn microsoft office... thanks lina, i own you one.. well today was a better day coz i manage to do the stuff eveleen teaches just now and quite happy with the result. Well did most of the stuff that i plan out to do... well i already downloaded the trial version like what jabez told me to do so but the only problem is it's at the other com and my thumbdrive seems to be corrupted coz it's almost full but eventually after checking the properties and checking the files in it... know what there is no files in there but in the property say that the drive is almost full as in 90%full so i don't know what to do and the other thing is the notebook can't detect any internet.. yup i am quite confused coz i am using cable modem as in just plug and play but when i plug cannot play... confused rite... me too so i though of trying wireless next and so tomorrow i'll have to do the set up and what so ever... so gonna be busy again ... so then gonna see if i could get a copy of photoshop anywhere coz they don't have trial... see if i could get a pirated one or i could ask around... well it's 6.10am gonna pray for awhile then maybe continue if i am not sleepy but don't think i will coz my mom will scream if she see i am not sleeping again... can't wait for sat.... going to escape....... hopefully nothing bad could ruin my mood... coz hopefully first time doesn't leave a bad impression... right.. k going off.

2006-03-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

hei i'm back eventually the first one i forgot to save so poof... it's gone.. well you know what i think i am having a very bad week coz i have been feeling this very bad feeling since monday. i felt that everything i do is wrong and nothing is right i can't even get a simple thing to be done and i always get fedup at every little thing.. k i know it's bad... and know what every time i ask for some favour the other party will always have reasons as if i know how to fix everything my self well if i do do i need to ask for a favour and later they will tell me how to get it but then i have to find it myself well it's it the same if i find it myself at the first place. well that particular person promise to help me but in the end implying that i have to work the problem on my own.. what the heck.. well i am not angry but instead i am sad.. kidda if you don't want the help me pls say so don't need to say reasons and in the end i have to find the solutions my self... well kindda feeling very bad right now i can''t sleep and i have so much things in my brain right now sometimes i can't thing stright even the simple thing such as listening to someone talking could be quite demanding for me sometimes coz i can't concentrate...well haven quite sleep in the last 24hrs so kindda feeling edgyer haha need to relax but how??? need to do so many things but don't know where to start. well first thing i need to get some sleep then wake up i need to post this thing and than i need to go out early coz need to print my project brief and nope the first thing is to sms lina if she can bring her notebook to school coz jabez told me to copy her microsoft office well if she wants to bring.. been down on my luck lately so it's ok if she refuse she has her decision... then i can rush to school and well if she say yes then bring the note book to copy the files then need to download trial version of macromedia sofeware(s) and need to find the crack hopefully some helpful and kind soul could help me get the keygen.. if they are willing to help in the first place... gosh.. so many things to do in one day..... oh ya i need to charge my phone.. then find a vcd ripper... then maybe continue my flash webpage at the other computer coz this one does not have flash... then maybe start planning my storyboard for video editing... well i don't know too many stuff to do well wish me luck k... and can't wait for saturday coz it's the day for fun coz i'm going to escape theme park and i hope i can escape from all this and be happy for just a while.. oh ya saturday if possible need to go to kak yaya place to take my hp charger... mama is angry coz i kept using hers.... well enough for now think i can close my eyes in 15mins time goodnite world.... and sleep tight me!!!!

2006-03-09T04:59:00.000+08:00

Video: Leo's Goodbye - Kiss From A Rose (fan edit)
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