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Name: Hirmah Bte Mazlan (EmA) Date of Birth: November16 1985 Horoscope Sign: Stupid Scopio To add me at MSN or Friendster gal_05@hotmail.com My Normal Email hir5mah@yahoo.com.sg Defy Gravity Tagboard Affilates
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 Hi there Those readers... haha hehta2 tak de org yg baca hehe... dah lama tak update eh Sebenarnye i just don't feel like touching the computer and all... i have been lazy sejak yg raya... Since i lost my previouse job.. i kindda of give up searching for job... but i need to rite!!! kalau tidak tak de duit... tak le keluar... well not really at all lazy lah after 2 weeks of raya, i went job hunting.... cari keje kat watson, guardian, shop and save, giant, NTUC... Factory... dah interview 3 factory... jus tadi i went for the maid agency punya interview... bukan interview jadi maid lah but sales admin cum coordinator... And semua kata tunggu call... binggit bercampur tak puas hati... apasal eh masih tak dapat keje lagi... bila apply factory dorang tanya apasal i diploma holder nak keje factory bila interview keje office because i ni pakai tudung lah ni lah... nak apply metro dorang tengok badan. yang lain pulak apahal kan.. bukan nak mengadu nasib or ape... just CONFUSED!!! bila kita belajar tak tinggi sanggat such as n atau o level dorang tak pandang... macam takde standard gitu lah, bila blajar poly, ade kata ,such as factory operator, blajar tinggi sanggat lah... Then kalau i nak masok those designing industries dorang kebanyakan nak chinese speaking as a must... bila cam hari tu dapat jadi cikgu, contract kene dissolve because i tinggal jauh... just say that u look down on ITE Grads sudah lah... i pun amik diploma is to prove that ite grads dapat diploma jugak ... but henta lah.. so many things that we will not understand... that day i gi seminar and they told us... tat dulu bila zaman 90an 10 job is to 1 people tapi zaman sekarang 10 people is to 1 job... and i find it damn true... haiz... how do we compete with those experience people coz sekarang semua nak experience preffered then how about fresh graduTES... oh... employer will say that fresh gradutes must speak mandarin... so that means only chinese or should i say mandarin speaking fresh grads only will get the job lah... those non mandarin speaking will do those menial and so called dirty job... what's worse is those tudung fresh grades... they are worse because employers will ask will u willing to open ure tudung??? if we say no... well there goes our job oppurtunities so how to survive??? Must we open our tudung and then can work?? like that better make a rule that bends tudungism means no job for them... hahaha... i don't know.. not trying to be what-so-ever... but i guess if they (employer) will give fair chance to those non mandarin speaking, non experience and tudungism a chance too... haiz....  k now i am in a different mood not about job but my relationship... my guy is going NS this 9 DEC 06... i want to sent him but i am scared i can't wake up... pagi dok... he will be leaving his house kul 7am... i don't want him in future nanti cakap that " girl aku tak antar aku bila aku masok NS" i feel bad lah but i guess it is better not to send him coz i am scared i cry... too me biar tak jumpa and just let me cry in silence where he won't see me crying coz i know if he see me cry he will cry too... why is it people always say that bila a guy masok NS one of tem will berubah... is it just a myth?? macam ghost story to scared people up... i ingat lagi bila time secondary i told him that sebelum dia masok NS kita nak tunang then bila dia habis NS kita kawin... i don't know that it will be this hard... Yelah kalau nak tunang kene ade duit... bila nak kawin kene ade duit... need to have a job ye lah lepas kawin kene ade duit coz... nak beli rumah lah..... then bila beli rumah kene beli furniture lah ... then bila dah complete nanti ade anak... nak beranak kene ade duit... THEN the main problem is nak kawin buakan murah sih... maybe up to 20k... for both party... or maybe more... kalau dut kawin dah ade... tak kan lepas nbayar semua then duit dah habis kan... too many things to think about ... so macam mana nak kumpul duit kalau tak keje... betul tak??? and he is always asking me about will i miss him??? will i leave him and all that nonsence... kadang2 because of those questions pun boleh gaduh... do i need to promise him all the time... i am tired of making the same promises all over again... he knows that i will not leave him... he knows that i will love him... he knows that i want ot marry him... but why is he so insecure???? why it is not as if i am miss universe ke or those preety chicks whom hang out with guys or have lots of friends... i am not like what he thinks i will be bila dia masok NS... Why does he still feel insecure even though kita dah 6 years together??? he should know me better kAN... OR HE STILL DON'T TRUST ME??? i don't know lah... i trust him alot... i do... i know i will not leave him or what so ever nonsence that he have heard... coz i love him alot.... REALLY ALOT!!! BUt i don't know what to say to make him feel the same way.... maybe time will prove all... INSYAALLAH... MAY ALLAH PROTECT HIM ALL THE WAY!!!!   don't you tink they look alike??? well i tink they do even though my sis don't agree.. each time i he came to the screen i will say eh hady dah keluar and she will say tak lah hady muka lain... darm... jabez just came in and told us about the major project... And we only have 1 month to finish everything and it's like darm... i can't finish it... i don't know... been in a very good mood to day but the news is like someone trew a a water bag straigh to my face... haizz... i don't know what to do and the deadline for the proposal id 15th nov... gtg lah... well long time tak blog.. well been feeling lazy sih.. and kindda sick... slamat raya untuk org2 yang membaca haha dah brapa minggu baru nak ucap kan.. hehe k lah so far raya was quite ok, just that too many probs... well one of it is that people tengok kita macam berada just becoz kita pindah ke rumah yg besar... so people began to speak dari blakang... tapi org tak tahu susah nye kita.. next is family ampak macam the hapi2 type but deep inside org tak tahu ape prob yg telah melanda...haha bukan nak mengadu nasib lah just saying... well as for skarang pun i am still jobless so kindda job hunting, went to apply lots of jobs kat net and so far none... maybe the guy maideen from mendaki pun dah malas nak tanya i lagi pasal my status , maybe dia ingatkan i am joking play2 je nak keje padahal2 takpe lah... so now i am in class so far only 5 of us and i am the only girl as per usual... so kindda bored... so i had a bad dream for like sejak shawal start... the latest was i got fed up of my anak2 sedara and i putus hubungan nagn my kak ipar which was.... karut... and i also dreamed of white ants... i kene gigit ngan white ants and i also got the solution that is to pakai api hahah it's a weird dream but very scary.. i woke up and terus tak boleh tido lagi sih... so now i am kindda drowsy... macam nak muntah henta lah maybe the lack of sleep but i slalu tido siang... around 10pm and then i sleep.. k lah gtg class dah start |